Arrrr........a weird sex dream..........

It's been awhile since last time I had a sex dream (by the way, i have never had a wet dream). Anyway, although this is obviously not the first time I have a sex dream, this time is a bit different then those ones i had before. Those sex dreams i used to have are mostly about me and my boyfriends or some faceless man. However, this time, was with one of my friend, a guy who is 5 years younger then me. I met this guy a year ago in school when I still had my computer monitor job. He often come to the computer lab and talk to me about some computer/computer game problem. He is absolutely great to hang out with and once he starts talking nothing can shut him up (sometimes it gets quite annoying). I have a feeling that he really likes me as a friend but the thing is I really don't not know deal with guys, especially younger guys. He tried to invite me to his house parties several times but I turned him down with no reasons (i dont know why). I am quite attracted to him because of his big personality, which is something I don't have and I desperately need. However, a younger dude like that is just not in my consideration at all, oh, did i mentioned that he is straight?

ANYWAY

yes, I had a sex dream about me and him. The dream was rather weird (how often do we experience "real" dreams in our life? I wonder), I appeared in this 60's looking, heavily industrialized area then i see this huge red industrialize colossus (please don't ask me whats a industrialized colossus like, i really can not describe) and I knew I have to destroy it (yea, this dream is heavily inspired by the video game "Shadow of the Colossus"). anyway, then i started to infiltrate into this colossus and suddenly I found this red shower room inside that colossus (how sexy). Then i saw him and we started making out. The sex was not clear what so ever (I am glad) and it ended pretty fast, the most weird thing about this dream is after we had sex he cut off his penis. It was rather big I have to say (LOL), I was so shocked I asked him what was he doing and he just told me it was fine and it would grow back (like a earth worm), I was scared indeed then I woke up.

colossus in the video "Shadow and colossus"

What's wrong with me? Do I actually have a crush on him that i don't even realize?? Whatever, I wish my next sex dream would be about me and some cute celebrities I like, like Ewan McGregor, Andy Samberg, Gerard Butler, Colin Firth...etc

Friends hunting

-I have decided each time when I upload a post i will post a random photo as well so my blog would not look as dull-

yes i know, that is such a brilliant idea

Bridget Jones is ironing her hair! How lovely!

The mid-term week has finally finished. sigh, finally...

how's my mid-term exam go? arrr.......lets not talk about it now

Lets talk about founding friends. I think its not the first time I mention I am actually quite lonely here in this city because most of my close friends have either gone back to Hong Kong or to other cities. I am not saying i have zero friends here but they most of them ain't really close. I guess I am the kind of people that lack of ability to make new friends. I don't want to make it sounds like an excuse, but I do believe being a International Homosexual Asian student here in a western country makes me even harder for me to know new friends, please do not tell me that is just something that created in my own head, I have experienced it myself. Nevertheless, I think the biggest challenge I have is i don't even know the where to found the "friend material" and i don't know how to increase my friend circle in this city. One of my close friend, Ri, recently got into this big University in UK for master program and she told me that the University has so many events and parties going on and people there are just very friendly and easy to make friend with, whereas my pathetic little art and design college only has snobbish designers and artists and no events like that. Honestly I envy her so much that sometimes I even wish I have chosen a bigger University so i would have more opportunity to know more friends, well, i guess its to late to say that now.

I am getting more and more desperate these few days and I finally went online and searched for some LGBT sport organizations in my area (I think it might be more comfortable for me to know more gay friends here) but it turned out they are freaking EXPENSIVE! It costs around 200USD in average to join whatever-sport-is leagues for a year (I searched for water polo league as well since the only sport I am good at is swimming, but it cost 400USD). I know the fees may actually include the rent of the gymnasium, but does it really have to cost that much? sigh....can anyone tell me when sport becomes such a luxurious activities to practice?

I recently talked to A (who is living in the other side of the earth) about this issue and she told me this same old story about how that kind of things would just happen in the most natural way and we don't really have to do much to get it (just like love). However, I've also been told that I hadn't been putting enough effort to make new friends. So, can anyone tell me how much effort i should put in order to keep this amazing balance between trying to hard and not trying hard enough?

sigh....

I am so stressed

I don't want to make this blog as a twitter blog, but, i am stressed!!!!!!

i have my exam tomorrow but i don't want to study!!!!!!!!!!

the blog will have regular post again once i finish my exam........

Recent Princesm - Super frustrated....

I can only do point form in this frustrating sentiment.

- One assignment due next Thursday for type class, which i still have "made" anything
- Mid-Term Exam of the class "Art and Fashion", which i still haven't read all the readings
- Just paid 600 bucks for Dental
- The transit took 2 tickets from me today
- forgot my lock for locker in YMCA, paid an extra 2bucks for the shitty YMCA lock.

Why me?