dating 4 guys (part 1)

Before reading this post, I want to tell you something. I want to make a pledge to you guys that everything I write below is 100% real and they really happened. I am not one of those bitches that just saying this to say how attractive I am. In fact, I've been the biggest loser in terms of getting a date since I came to this country. I am so surprised by the things that happened to me recently, being asked for a date from 4 different guys in the same time, things like that has never happened before and probably wouldn't happen in the future. Although I might not actually be with any of them eventually, it is still a very interesting story to be told.

Two weeks ago I went clubbing again with my friend J. Soon I realized there was a guy, a quite young/good looking white guy but a bit chubby, had been staring at me for awhile. Then I started dancing next to him and see if he was really interested. As I thought, he was, soon we started dancing together then we kissed. However, I found him a tiny bit too aggressive and eventually became a turn off. He also constantly dragged away by this friends while I was dancing with him. Therefore I just escaped when their friends did that again. Then I ran into RHG, a guy I almost slept with last time I saw him, then we started kissing and dancing together. I admit that I was acting a bit like a slut that night, but I think its fine as long as I know where my bottom line is, which is not going to bed with any of those guys.

While I was on my way to the toilet, I was approached by an other guy, a middle thirthish white guy. Actually I did notice his staring earlier but I ignored him since he isn't the best looking one who was interested in me that night in the club. (I know what I did is very shallow, but tell me, how sophisticated you can be in a club?). This time he came in front of me and said hi. I said hi to him too. He asked me what my background is then I told him I am from Hong Kong. Then I asked him as well because his accent doesn't sound local. He told me he is from German and have been living here fore 4 years for biology research in hospital. I was impressed and interested in his occupation. Therefore, after I went to the toilet, I gave him a small piece of paper with my name and phone number with it. Then I went back to RHG and continued what we were doing. I ended up didn't do anything with RHG that night but this is what he text me the next day.

"oh my sweet little friend. I couldn't get enough of you last night...let's go out sometime"

then he send me another message of asked me for a coffee the next day.

a day later, I received a text message from the German guy about asking me for a supper well

to be continued

what should I do (part 2)

5th Dec 2009, Saturday, Cold

I went to the same club alone again. I guess its was still a little bit early when I got there, there wasn't many people in the club at the time. I was drinking and dancing, then this red Hollister shirt guy (RHG) approached me. he looked quite cute in the club and It didn't take more then the one song for us to went from just staring each other to start dancing together. Four songs later we started kissing. Everything went fine until I saw AM and his friend again. At the moment, AM was looking at me, right into my eyes. Suddenly, this huge guiltiness just exploded in my head and I can't explain why. When AM looked at me, he looked at me as if i did something wrong. I tried to look at AM few times while I was dancing with RHG and every time I did I got the same look in return then I would look at the floor. I have to admit that I was so annoyed but intrigued by the whole situation and I would love to know what's in AM's mind. However, I had my RHG at the time and I can't just simply push him away since I kind of picked him too when he approached me. Therefore that night, AM and I still hadn't talked. Around 1 am, RHG asked me if i want to go to his place, the signal is obvious, and I agreed.

I was nervous indeed, not only because I've never done one-night-stand before but also because of I do not have a lot sex experience (yes, sadly). I always told myself ONS is not something wrong/ugly/dirty and it just a way that people use to fulfill their sexual need as long as they are consensual and they think they can handle the emotion fluctuation after doing it. Therefore, I thought that might be the time I should experience it.

"hey, I just want to let you know I might not be able to do that because I didn't have a lot of experience" I didn't say that to pretend to be innocent, I said that as I meant it because the last time I tried to have anal sex I had to tell that guy to pull it out after he just put his glans penis in. That's how untrained my body is.

"it's okay" he said it and looked at me, "we don't have to do it if you don't want to"

"no, i want to, it jsut.... i dont know if i could take it"

Then I went to his place and started making out on his bed. We jerked each other off for awhile then he asked me if he could top me while his put his erected penis against my butt.

However, he didn't, he just didn't. I asked him why but he didn't answer. I am not sure if it was because I hesitated when I answered his question. He just kept jerking me and he seemed like he just want the whole thing to finish. However, the thing is, I can't cum when I feel pressure (because i feel like he just want my to cum and finish the act). Therefore I stopped him and asked him if he need to work the next day. He said yes and I suggested that I might just go home. He agreed and walk me home. I do think that's quite nice of him to walk me home.

I actually think that is the best possible way of how this ONS story should end since I did try to have it (ONS) and I realized ONS is not for me and I realize it before i actually got fucked by someone I don't know so well.

but, i still don't understand why didn't he do it.........hmmmm.........any thoughts?

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