Happy Vancouver

This is just the second day of the trip I've already fallen in love with this city. I must say Vancouver is such a nice city which amazed me in quite a lot of reasons. okay, honestly i dont have alots of time, i have to get ready for lunch. I will definitely tell you guys more about this trip and upload some pictures when i come back. love~

Going to Vancouver

I am now at the airport waiting to get into the plane to go to Vancouver, the mysterious city in Canada where full of wealthy Hong Kong people. My friend even told me because of Van is now heavily populated by Hong Kong immigrant therefore Vancouver has a nickname called "Hongcouver". The reason I am traveling so far away for a city that so lack of surprises for me is because I want to visit A. I believe I had mentioned A before in one of my older post, which featured a conversation between us about W. A is one of my very best friends who I can really share absolutely anything to her (I bet she must feel flattered when she read this, but A, don't be too proud and keep reading) and I always get very rational and practical responds (I guess I had mention this before too). She is now studying for her master degree in UBC, one of the top two Universities in Canada, the other one is U of T, therefore I decided to use my last bit of my last summer holiday to visit her. To be very very honest Vancouver is actually not where I want to go originally. For those who has been reading this blog for awhile (I don't even know such person exist) must know that I originally planned to go to London to visit W. However, bad things do happen, so the trip to London is cancelled and since I have no plan to go back to Hong Kong therefore the plan became going to Canada to visit A. Moreover, Vancouver is my mum once told me Vancouver is very pretty place and I know if I am not going now I will never want to go again. Since this is a last minute thing and sort of a Healing trip for me from the trauma of not being able to go to London to see W and especially this is VANCOUVER, therefore I am not really expecting any exciting adventure. However… This is the conversation between me and my friend Lu

Lu, "Wow, you going to Vancouver?"
Me, "Yea, since I am not going to London."
Lu, "Are you going to the Rocky Mountain as well? I've heard it's beautiful there"
Me, "Oh...well, who said we have to fill in our time with activities when we travel? I think sometimes traveling can also be relaxing, empty and slow."
Lu, "Oh…whatever you like then, it's just not my travel principles."

However…after being a cynic for awhile…

Me, "Hey A, Is Rocky Mountain far away?"
A, "yes, very far away"
Me, "oh…well…fine then…I am just curious…" :-P

Have you drunk TrueBlood today? ep10

minor spoiler attention: this post contains minor spoilers of the TV show TrueBlood episode 10

I KNEW IT, I knew sookie is more then just a telepathic and she has the power to destroy that bitch Maryann. I knew it! really!

but wait...Sookie Stackhouse, how could you have sex with Eric!?!? Huh?? How could you do this to Bill !? I know Eric is super hot, but still...you've got yourself a handsome vampire already, girl, you got to learn to embrace of what you have and stop being greedy.

So far the story is going as I predicted - When Bill left sookie to found helps from Lorena, Sookie will somehow be in a danger position again and Eric will save her life once again at the very last minute then Sookie will fall in love with him after then. Sigh......poor Bill, I will totally take you if Sookie is really going to leave you for Eric. Hey, here my neck (yes, I am proud to be a gay fang-banger).

By the way, there is actually another Hottie in the show that I really like. Nope, not Jason. Its Terry!!

Terry Belleflur is played by Todd Lowe. He is sosoosososososo Cute, He looks like a gentle teddy bear in the show!!














Key scenes of episode 10

Sookie! How could you...

Bitch, I want slap you so hard that you will not need botox to get your face numb

Yea, take that bitch!

Shopping day

I don't look too bad compare to the model behind me, right?

It's weird, I'm starting to feel guilty when I stop updating this blog even I don't know if anyone is reading it, Damn!

I actually have quite a few topics I really want to cover in this blog, but it just takes so long for me to organize my writing since I am really suck at writing.

Anyway Anyway, I went shopping with one of my best friends Z last Wednesday. The weather was a pretty pleasant therefore we decided to take some pictures as well (see up there). It's been a long time since last time I actually went shopping, which differ from just walking past a mall. We walked around the expensive shopping area in Town. Of course I love fashion since i am a homo, however, since i am still a poor student I rarely get brand name stuff even I have a part time job cuz being a visa student is just so expensive which makes me feel really guilty if I spend any money on brand name clothing. Moreover, I always think it is really stupid to chase just the brand name but the design (I just couldn't understand why people would spend hundreds of dollars to get a T-shirt with just has the logo "Y3" on the chest, as well as the ugly coach bag with the ugly coach pattern). I do believe cheap clothing could look equally cool if it is well mixed and matched. However, my cynic ran away immediately once I got into those expensive stores. I became the little child who is looking at colorful sweets with his sparkling eyes. "We don't stand a chance when we face true beauty, not even a glance" said one of my favorite writer Vincci Cheuk when she describe the moment when she saw a Marc Jacobs dress.

After shopping and dinner I went to Z's new place and stayed there for 2 days since her girl friend, yes it's HER GIRL FRIEND, were gone to the states for couple days. Z's new place is located far up north of where I live at a remote country side (had to take about an hour bus to get there, geez). But since the place is so far away its extremely quiet at night it made the best sleep I've had since I've moved to downtown. I actually brought my computer with me and optimistically thought I would be productive when I am in a quiet place like that, but it turned out me and Z was just eating and sleeping and watching movie all day. Well, in a VERY optimistic side, that is what holidays for, am i right?

All About Fetish

This is a rather embarrassing topic to talk about since I do have real friends reading this blog regularly but I am still going to write it.

When I was taking a bus to go to collage today there was this guy sitting beside me, tall, average looking Caucasian. Soon I noticed there was a subtle whiff of body odor exuded from his body, it wasn't very strong but enough for me to notice. He is not particularly handsome, but his odor is more then enough to give me a serious hard on especially I hadn't wanked for the day. His odor was driving me crazy through my entire trip. I was a bit disappointed when he got off the bus.

Yes, ONE of my fetishes is man's body odor (skip this post if you are disgusted) . One might call it the natural scent of human, body aroma, but for me body odor is body odor, it doesn't really matters how people call it. However, the body odor that I mentioned is different from the pungent smell after serious sweating, but obtained naturally by merely daily activities and their emotions (i hope you could understand what i meant, i really don't know how to explain better). Yet not every men's odor would attract me. I would only attracted by a very particular type of body odor. I've figured I would attracted to odor that similar to mine. I would say My fetish of body odor is quite strong and very immediate as well. This is simply a different realm of attraction other then the attraction obtained by my vision. That's why sometimes I got aroused by not-so-good looking man (geek usually) since they don't care about their appearance they wouldn't even bother to put deodorant, such a stupid dilemma. I wonder if there's any handsome dude would be confident enough with their odor and therefore they wouldn't apply any deodorant (its very unlikely i guess).

Therefore i don't think there's such body odor could actually be bad, there's only body odor we don't like. I think the following quote explains it pretty well.

"...there’s really no such thing as an intrinsically “bad smell.” Rather, there are only smells; and how we perceive them is largely an artifact of our particularly human evolutionary heritage. To say that rotting flesh smells disgusting is similar to saying that the sunset looks beautiful—there’s no “beautiful-ness” quality intrinsic to the sunset just as there’s no “disgusting-ness” intrinsic to rotting flesh. Rather, rotting flesh and sunsets are only perceived this way by the human mind; as “phenomenological” qualities, adjectives such as “beautiful” and “disgusting” merely describe how we subjectively experience the natural world. I can assure you that whatever particular scents you find repulsive, my dog, Gulliver, would likely perceive as irresistibly appealing. And I mean rotting flesh and just about anything else you can think of, with the exception perhaps of skunk odor and his own feces..." By Jesse Bering@scientificamerican.com

I remember one summer I worked at the book fair in Hong Kong for few days when I was like 16 or 17 (can't remember when). I was one of the two cashiers (the other one is a girl). One day that girl was call in sick so her place was substituted by another co-worker, a fairly good looking guy with athletic body. I think that was probably my first actual turn on by a guy's odor. I was so horny and I had to wank at the exhibition hall's toilet (come on! I was in adolescence age). That was one of my craziest thing I did in teen age (see? I am not that crazy after all). My first boy friend, a french Canadian, has very strong BO too (in case you don't know, french is famous for having strong BO, that's why perfume are so popular in this country). I wouldn't say I dislike the type of odor his has but it's just way too strong it totally passes the line of turning me on, especially when he gets aroused (when we were having sex), his body odor would just go crazy, Its like 10 time worst then the stench of lame (if you ever had authentic lame dish)

Fetish is an interesting thing. Everyone has it but no one would likely to bring it up in a conversation (friends would talk about anything about sex like position, sex length. level of joy, but their fetish). Yes fetish is a very private thing indeed, But I suppose the main reason people are not willing to talk about it is because they are kinda ashamed of it (actually I still feel embarrassed talking about it right now right here). I could totally imagine most of the people would go "ewwwwwwwwwwww" after they've heard any fetish and it doesn't matter what the fetish is. Some would even ends the topic with a stupid joke about one's fetish, like:

Tom: "I have feet fetish"
Tom's friend: "Well, then please remind me not to wear sandals next time I see you"

I was once in the similar situation. I knew my friend wasn't meant to be mean and he just don't know how to respond since it is not a usual conversation topic and making a joke seems to be the universal answer to all awkward moments. However, I must say this move is actually rather irritating since it needs a lot of courage to share one's fetish to someone else and I am sure if you are being shared with such issue you are actually being trusted and seen as a very close/good friend of his/hers, therefore I think we should take it carefully if we are being shared with this issue.

okay.....now I've shared mine, what's yours?

extended readings:
Armpit Psychology: The Science of Body Odor Perception

Have you drunk TrueBlood today? ep9

minor spoiler attention: this post contains minor spoilers of the TV show TrueBlood episode 9

wahhh!!!!!

OMG!! Today's episode is sososo good!!

key scenes in today's TrueBlood:
Sookie sucked Eric (you have to see why !!)
Yaoi scene between Eric and Godric!!! ( I love it !!!)

Eric was being such a bad ass it made him even more attractive! Damn!

this episode also starts the classic battle between a gentleman (Bill) and a bad boy (Eric), just like many other "love battles" like Mark and Daniel in Bridget Jones's Diary, Roger Federer and Rafael Nadal at the Wimbledon glass field, lol

Who would you choose if you were sookie??

you know Bill is always my favorite character through out the whole show, not only because he is very mature, both body and mind (yes I admit i like mature guys and he is exactly my type), but also he is so sincere, gentle, caring. the part that he almost kill himself to save sookie at the last season's finale it just melts my heart......sniff*

HOWEVER, since there are more and more depictions on Eric's character I start gradually liking him now(when I first start watching the series Eric is nothing but a bad ass with supper pretty face). But now it shows that he could be quite gentle too (at least to the one that he likes, like sookie). Therefore if the show continues showing the tenderness of him (I am sure it will), i will not be able to resist to fall for him just like how sookie will (i am sure).

please allow me to predict whats going to happen between Bill, Eric and Sookie in the later episodes. Bill will make a big mistake by putting sookie in risk again (he has done it million times) and since Eric is able to sense sookie now he is able to save her life in time and that is when sookie start falling for him and start dating him. At the same time bill feels really guilty by putting sookie in risk again and decides to let go of her and go back to Lorena. However, Eric finally realize who sookie really love is not him but stupid Bill. Therefore he would finally let her go back to Bill.

Key scenes of today's show

Sookie sucked Eric........'s chest!!!

Godric's love confession to Eric.

awwwwwww, poor lovers. lol

princesm's blog note 16-8-2009

I told ya its very hard to write a movie review!!!

That's why it took three days have have the new post!! :P (seriously, because i had to write down points and organize them and i am really not good at that.)

Anyway, I am quite happy because I've seen some growth of this website (more new people are visiting!). It really makes a different when you know people is actually reading my site and it gives me the motivation to write too. I promise I will keep on writing things on this site more regularly, yay~~~

Moreover, I've create a new email account for this blog, which is princesm.boy@gmail.com, you guys are welcome to email me anytime if you have anything to tell me, DON'T SEND ME SPAM MAIL PLEASE!!!!

District 9 Review

*Spoiler Attention : skip this post if you're planning to watch this movie

I used to write a lot of film reviews when I was younger because I think the analyzing process would make me be able to appreciate/depreciate the film even more. However, since I've seen more movie as i grew older, I also have more insight in movies. It makes it really hard to write a decent review to cover every aspect of the film. However, since I've got this blog, I think I should share my thoughts here, at least those films that i enjoy watching and i am writing the movie "district 9" today.

First of all, I must say this movie is really good

Allow me to broke the movie down into different categories so i could express better.

Storyline/plot: Honestly the major story line isn't that impressive. Aliens who are stuck on earth for 20 years wants to found a way out and one of them ends up team up with a mutated human to against the avaricious government who wants to have the control of the alien weapon. However, what it really impresses me is the message behind his story and the way of how its presented. The setting of the story raise up a bunch of interesting questions:

First, Why there are so much similarities between this alien and human? why alien has to similar to human at all? They are aliens!!! they could be in any form and any size that we have not yet seen in our planet. However, In this movie, they are not only having similar body size, body figure, but also similar emotions, psychological mind set and even language as human (these high intelligent creatures use the vibration of air (sound) to deliver messages just like how human does! ha! how amazing!) . I seriously think this is a deliberate idea,humanizing the aliens, to create the metaphor of how strong nations treat the "alienated" nations.

Why those aliens have greater intelligence but they act like savages on earth?

Why don't they have a huge attack against human with their powerful weapon?

I think all of those questions are led to the same question - How Human treats others who are different from us (or majority) when we know/think we have more power over "them".

Character development: Brilliant! One of common problem in Hollywood productions is characters are usually too flat. What I meant by "flat" is in those Hollywood movies, good guys are only presented as a good guy and bad guys only do bad things and they can never "think" and "change". However, in this movie, the depiction of characters' mind are so well presented especially the main character, Wikus, the good guy in the movie, however, as the story goes by it shows more and more flaws in his personality. The depictions of the changes of his mind set are so well done it really surprised me.

Acting: excellent. The movie is basically only led by the main character, Wikus, who is played by Sharlto Copley, originally a screen writer and movie producer, I just can't believe this is his first movie and I seriously think he would trump over most of the so-called Hollywood actors if he tries to be a full time actor. As i said, since there are lots psychological changes in the main character's mind through out the entire movie, his interpretation of the character is so well it perfects his performance.

Cinematography: Very well done as well. Obviously this is not the first movie that shot as a documentary (I am sure lots of people recalls Cloverfield when they watch this movie). However, in my opinion, I think the cinematography in this movie is slightly better then cloverfield because the control of the balance of between being too documentary or movie like is handled very well. Moreover, audience wouldn't feel dizzy after watching it like after watching Cloverfield.

In my opinion, although this movie might not be a classic, it definitely is one of the best movie in the same category. :)

District 9 official Trailer

Princesm as a blog reader - Am I an Orientals??

I dont want to be this kind of "Orientals", ok?
photo by Bernard-z@flickr

Before I started this blog I almost never read other people's blog. It's not only because I don't like reading but also I don't give a shit on other people's life and thoughts. However, after I started the blog I am more engage to this nation of blog and I started to read more and more blog. It proves that i was wrong about what i thought, I do give a shit and I did found some of the blogs are actually rather interesting, like this one, gay banker. Recently he has posted a entry about if calling an Asian an "Orientals" is politically correct, Click here to see the post. After I read that I made the following respond.

Hello, this is my first time leaving a comment here. Hello GB!

First of all i am a Chinese gay guy who is living in a western country (trying to be politically correct.).

I think when it comes to term like that you get to be very careful cuz it falls into the dilemma of labeling and being labeled. It just like gay guys could call themselves "faggot" it doesn't means anyone else could call them the same way, as well as the word "nigger". I am sure lots of "south-east" people would referred themselves as "Orientals" but i doubt they would all enjoy being called "Orientals" by a white/black/who ever not the same race as they are. I would say "Asians/ south east Asians" are much better terms because they are very direct and they just say the place they come from, just like we call European European because they are from Europe. However, the term "Orientals" is so much more complicated. It has so much connotations behind the term and most of the connotation is just based on feeling since "orientals" is an adjective as well. Its like "yes, i am from Asia, but when you call me Orientals i would imagine you are actually thinking me wearing a "Oriental" rattan hat and standing on the "Oriental" boat holding a bamboo and singing an "Oriental" song in a "Oriental" environment " (I know its retarded to think that way but I just do) oh....i think the word "retarded" fall into this dilemma too....sorry for using that

Anyway, I think its very sincere of you to actually take this issue seriously.

by the way, i don't think i would like being called 'Orientals" and i was once being called "color people" by a random guy in front of my place and I just slammed the door. /(> o<)/

Email from W

I got W's email three days ago.

this is what he wrote

OK.. I've been away from town for a few days but hopefully talk to you soon.

I guess he is trying to tell me he was away so he couldn't go online to call me for the past few days.

I know he goes back to his parents place on the weekend fairly often but COME ON!!!!! I sent the email which i told him he could call me on skype last Wednesday, was he out last thursday and and friday too?? grrrr, this guy disgust me!

Cute swimmer at YMCA

Heehee

I should have written this much earlier because it was few weeks ago when I first met this guy at the first day I work out in YMCA.

I went there for a swim that day and i saw him at the pool- A quite cute looking Caucasian male in average height with very tanned skin and slim body. I was swimming at the open area at the pool and he was swimming at the fast lane (I always avoid to swim a the lane cuz i really hate the idea of some one is running/chasing after me). When we were both standing at the side of the pool taking a rest I sort of noticed he looked at my way quite often. suddenly he went "excuse me..." the immediate reaction i had was moving away because i thought he wanted to pass my way, but he didn't, then i noticed he might have wanted to talk to me, but whatever, then i continue swimming. After that, back to exactly same situation, we were standing at the side, he went "it's a busy day, isn't it?" at the lowest possible amount of volume. Then i was like "oh, is he talking to me?" then i looked around and there was no one there then i realized he might be actually talking to me. Since I wasn't sure if he was "really" talking to me so i didn't respond at all...

I saw him few days ago at the shower (quite embarrassing) and I noticed he peeked at me (of cuz i know, becasue i peeked too) but not in a obvious way.

I know we might end up becomes no more then two strangers but at least now i have one more reason to go gym, right?

I suppose anyone who've ever been to the gym would had the similar experience, am i right? or I am the only slut here?

More W

Few days ago, I sent an email to W telling him if he really want to talk he could call if he sees me online. (since I've deleted him on skype, as well as msn)

I dont have one concrete reason to explaiun why i did that becasue i am sure it has more then one reason why i did that.

All of my friends asked me why am i doing it to myself. They're all telling me the reason i am making myself available is because i want to lie to myself me and him still have hope.

That is very normal to think but i really don't think thats true, at least not the major part of it.

yes I love him and i really hope he could do things to make me forgive him. but i know it is not happening and i know exactly there're no hope between us.

In the past three weeks, I thought about him every single day but every time i thought about him and the things he that did to me(not only that meeting-online-gay-guy incident) i would get very pissed and angry. What he's been doing is manipulating my love for him. I just can't forgive him by doing that to me. I know I am responsible too, i should have gone away from him long time ago but i didn't. Anyway, i just know we can't be together anymore, not even friends.

then why am i doing that.

I really don't know...

tell me, was I wrong?

Nice supper and clubbing Night

"Oh, I wish I have time to XXX!" It properly the most common thoughts to come across when people who is being busy and just not be able to anything else other then their work. Making fancy meal happens to be one of the things I would think about at that moment. However, it doesn't mean i would really do it when i have free time again. Just like now, I thought I would try so many recipe during this summer holiday, but in fact, I haven't been trying anything fancy until yesterday.

This is what i made Potato Gnocchi with Veal and Mushroom Sauce. see recipe

for this special occasion I invited Clare to join me, we had the supper at my balcony. This is actually the first time i ever have a meal at my balcony. supper at the balcony with wine and jazz, It was just what i wanted. :P

Trust me, it IS very good, you guys should try it

we went to clubbing later on the nite, but i guess we went there too late, we waited like an hour (seriously!) to get in the club, lucky the music in there is very nice, it makes a perfect night. :)

The Karaoke incident

"When you hang out a bunch of gay guys, you will get nothing but drama"

from the greatest poet - Princesm


Last week, I went to S's friend's birthday Karaoke party with S (of cuz). However, sicne T and S had broken up and i will be likely to stay in S's place for the night after karaoke therefore I asked if T mind if i go. well i know it is not necessary but I still did because i kinna know how it feels to have your good friend hanging out with your ex-boyfriend who you still love/hate. When i asked T he acted like he does care and tell me he is fine with that. I knew that might not be totally true but the thing is I really really wanted to sing karaoke and since he has said yes, so if he regreds, it will not be my fault.

the karaoke night was fine and It was fun too. However, when S was driving me to his place he suggested somehting fairly interesting which wow me a little bit.

S "Hey, i want to tell you something"
me "shoot"
S "I just washed the bed sheet of my bed, therefore i took the one from the guest room"
me "oh?"
S "Dont worry, my bed is enough for two people"
me "arrr" <WHAT THE FUCK? you are suggesting we should sleep together??>
S "Don't worry, i won't do anything, it just my bed is the only bed has a bed sheet"
me "arrrr.........i think i can sleep without a bedsheet" <OMG, that is the lamest excuse i have even heard to get someone sleep on their bed>

Then it was silence. However, he will asked me if i want to sleep on his bed and i used my last bit of energy and went, "thank you, i think i am fine."

S has been sending obvious singles since i've met him when he was still with T. Every time i could just play dumb and pretend I didn't know and ignore it. But this time, since this excuse is so lame it made me look so weird when i play dumb dumb.

S, i might have screwed you to if you are just someone.
Its too bad you are not

I called T the next day at the midnight. T seemed he was half-sleeping. After i said hi he went:

T "how was it?"
me "how was what?"
T "how was the love making last night?
me "what? love makeing? whit whom?"
T "your friend"
me "my friend, you mean S?"

well, obviously T is jealous which i am not surprised at all, although i knew he was half-joking but isn't it a bit uncool to say something like that to your friend? moreover, i have asked him if he mind and he said no. He has absolutely no right to say such things to me and i am offended indeed.

me "T, I am your friend, what you have said is an insult"
then T was playing dumb, he went "oh what did i say"
me "you were accusing me slept with S"
T "i didn't say that"
me "i don't feel like talking now, bye"

yes, I hanged him up, otherwise I will be wasting my time if i carry on the conversation him.

Sigh......drama.......drama.......drama

W called.

Few days ago, W left me message in skype telling me he miss and and miss talking me in early morning.

but i didn't reply

The next day, He messaged me again in the morning. I usually wouldn't wake up that early but because i had a appointment with the hair dresser that day therefore i was there when he me messaged me. He said hey and few seconds later he tried to call me from skype. I was so nervous i didn't know what to do at all. It wasn't as easy as just ignoring his text message. I don't know how to explain why but its just hard. I felt like i have to make a decision in such a short time. It didn't occrue to me ignoring his phone cell is an opinion, all i can thought about was whether "answer" or "refuse". Trust me, I want to talk to him more then anything in the world, but i refused his call. Again, i really didn't know what to think, but that time I know if i answer the phone call I will fall into his trap again.

then he sent the following message to me:

"P, I would not bug you and annoy you again so i won't call you again, I just want to tell you I really miss you and want to talk to you"

I was so nervous my sweat is all over my body. I was sad too, sad that he told he would not call again.

I tried so hard to type something but i couldn't. After 10 minutes of struggling, i finally went:

"anything important?"

"no, i just want to talk to you"

"K, bye"

this is how our conversation ended