The Karaoke incident

"When you hang out a bunch of gay guys, you will get nothing but drama"

from the greatest poet - Princesm


Last week, I went to S's friend's birthday Karaoke party with S (of cuz). However, sicne T and S had broken up and i will be likely to stay in S's place for the night after karaoke therefore I asked if T mind if i go. well i know it is not necessary but I still did because i kinna know how it feels to have your good friend hanging out with your ex-boyfriend who you still love/hate. When i asked T he acted like he does care and tell me he is fine with that. I knew that might not be totally true but the thing is I really really wanted to sing karaoke and since he has said yes, so if he regreds, it will not be my fault.

the karaoke night was fine and It was fun too. However, when S was driving me to his place he suggested somehting fairly interesting which wow me a little bit.

S "Hey, i want to tell you something"
me "shoot"
S "I just washed the bed sheet of my bed, therefore i took the one from the guest room"
me "oh?"
S "Dont worry, my bed is enough for two people"
me "arrr" <WHAT THE FUCK? you are suggesting we should sleep together??>
S "Don't worry, i won't do anything, it just my bed is the only bed has a bed sheet"
me "arrrr.........i think i can sleep without a bedsheet" <OMG, that is the lamest excuse i have even heard to get someone sleep on their bed>

Then it was silence. However, he will asked me if i want to sleep on his bed and i used my last bit of energy and went, "thank you, i think i am fine."

S has been sending obvious singles since i've met him when he was still with T. Every time i could just play dumb and pretend I didn't know and ignore it. But this time, since this excuse is so lame it made me look so weird when i play dumb dumb.

S, i might have screwed you to if you are just someone.
Its too bad you are not

I called T the next day at the midnight. T seemed he was half-sleeping. After i said hi he went:

T "how was it?"
me "how was what?"
T "how was the love making last night?
me "what? love makeing? whit whom?"
T "your friend"
me "my friend, you mean S?"

well, obviously T is jealous which i am not surprised at all, although i knew he was half-joking but isn't it a bit uncool to say something like that to your friend? moreover, i have asked him if he mind and he said no. He has absolutely no right to say such things to me and i am offended indeed.

me "T, I am your friend, what you have said is an insult"
then T was playing dumb, he went "oh what did i say"
me "you were accusing me slept with S"
T "i didn't say that"
me "i don't feel like talking now, bye"

yes, I hanged him up, otherwise I will be wasting my time if i carry on the conversation him.

Sigh......drama.......drama.......drama

Recent me

I know I know, i haven't been updating my blog for a week.

it just.....I haven't been in a good mood since i stopped talking with W. I basically couldn't do anything. I was just working out and watching drama in the past two weeks. I am never a work out person (please dont imagine me having a masculine body, gross) but during the first week of ignoring him. I know and i told myself i need something to focus on beside thinking about him so i joined a gym near by where I live. The original intention of joining it is just for their swimming pool cuz Swimming can clear my mind because when i swim, I could only think about swim but nothing else. It feels so great to be in the water and being care free, both mind and body. I almost go to gym everyday now and now I've already lost 4 lbs and my muscles are all toned up. I guess I shouldn't be too sad cuz at last i dont feel trashy about my body anymore.

oh, by the way, after a long drag, T and S finally broke up (i am sure its not because of me :P). However, the one who really suffer from this doesn't seem to be either T or S but me cuz they both keep blaming each other to me after the break up. honestly i really dont want to know, but since i am their friend i guess i have no choose but to suck it up. the only thing i could do save myself some brain cells is to shut up and listen to them otherwise if i dare to give any comments and agreemants of what they said it means i am willing to be the judge between them that means I will even suffer more.

anyway, T and S, good luck with your break up and I dont want to know more about how much you guys hate each other

Some drama (2)

so, S told me he had known me for a long time. He told me he had visited my friendster page(can you imagine how long ago it was? friendster?) long time ago and thought my photos is very "interesting" (really? just interesting? LOL). he even told me he had messaged me but i never reply. After he told me he had messaged me, i did vaguely remember seeing his face at my friendstar message inbox (but come on, you? reply you? if he had a better photo on friendster i might have replied him). However, to be honest, seeing him in real person does make me think he actually could be a nice boyfriend. Anyway, isn't it very creepy there is always some people to claim to know you just because they had cyber stalked you?? yes, this is not the first time "some people" told other people they know me but i have no freaking idea who they are. Anyway, we carried on talking about that after dinner when we chatting in S's house because i called him a stalker. One thing I felt quite weird about him is he is trying to be too close/friendly to me which made me wonder if he likes me. In his place, he kept showing E (T was sleeping in the couch) my photos on friendstar to explain how "interesting" i was ( i really dont know why he would do that). Then he added me on facebook and asked me to log in to add him (was it necessary???). However, i didn't add him at that time tho, not in front of other people. anyway, suddenly a shocking news (just for me) came out from E's month, which is T and S are boyfriends.

WHAT?? I COULDN'T SENSE THAT AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!
They didn't kiss, didn't have any sweet talk, didn't hold hands, didn't even sit together when we ate!!!

anyway, i felt so stupid to called S a stalker. I really didn't know what T would think. honestly i really want to keep T as my friend and i don't want to him to misunderstand me therefore I know I need to keep distance from S.

When S drove me home that night I told him I really didn't know he and T are boyfriends if E didn't mention it. Then he said he thought i knew. I told him It was not even possiable for anyone to tell they are boyfriends unless those people are being told. Then he suddenly looked quite upset and go, "Do you think we are a good match?"

WAH! (chinese shocking expression) why would you ask me that??? What can i answer you ???? Would anyone know better then yourself ???? it was such a ridiculous question to ask.

Since that was such a dangerious question to answer I didn't think about if they really match or not at all. All i can think about is a nice way to say yes (do you really think no could be an opinion? huh? seriously?) to comfort him.

Drama Drama, can you keep away from me? what i want is just friends........

Some drama? (1)

Sometimes i wonder if what i write is interesting enough for people to read since this blog isn't meant to just for myself but also for the public to read as well. Therefore sometimes I think i should just skip some events which don't sound very interesting for most of the people, but, isn't it what blog there for and why it is so interesting to read? recording small, insignificant events or things that only mean something for their own but it somehow connects to the readers?

Therefore, I have decided I would just write whatever I feel like to write even it might even sounds silly to other people.

Therefore, "SUCK IT UP, GUYS!!!" hahahahhahahahahahhaha

okay, the long boring introductions is actually for the following incident......the reason i dont want to write about this is because i dont even know what i think is even true, I would be so embarrassed if its not :P. anyway, this is what happened.

Since me and T just exchanged phone number last week and we haven't been spoken to each other since then I decided I should do something to bring our friendship to the next stage. I text messaged him my msn few days ago. The same day, he called and told me he just got off from work and wanted to hang out. I told him I needed time to prepare, hence I suggested he should just come over my place and wait for me. Eventually we were just staying at my place and start drinking and chatting. Although T might not be the best mate I want to chat with but I still had a fairly pleasant time chatting. After that we decided to move our ass to go for supper. By the time we are ready to go T got a phone call from this friend asking if we want to join them for supper in up town. I agreed and we finally joined them around 7. Including me, there were only four people this time (ma, T, S and E). I've seen S and E once before in that gay event but we almost didn't chat at all since it was the first time I meet them and the crowd was quite big which makes it awkward to talk. I was hoping I could finally have some real conversation with them this time. The supper was really pleasant and I enjoy it very much. T turns out to be the normalest guy within the group, S is the uptight kind and E is the crazy dude. After the supper, on the way to take his car, he told me sometime a somwhow shocking news, he told me he had known me for a very long time. However, i have no memory meeting his guy before last week......(continue)