OMG! I was kissed by fucking FK

It still grosses me out when I think about it now.

okay, if you don't know who FK is then read the previous post or click here.

Yesterday is the last day of M's business trip here therefore we decided to have a farewell sleep in/PJ party in his hotel where is just 1 minutes away from where I live. I didn't want FK to come but it was just hard to not to invite him since he and M are friends and M didn't know the creepy stories I had with FK.

One interesting thing was M was being very touchy-feely to me the whole night. Since he is a bottom as well so I don't see the harm of it, I just let him, I even let me kiss my cheek. However, FK didn't seem to know what is the different between he and M. He probably thought he can do the same thing to me as what M did, so he tried to touch me few times that night and I just pushed him away every time he did it.

Whereas M had huge king size bed in his room so we three decided to just sleep on the same bed together after couples of drinks and a long chat(me and M did most of the chatting, FK remains quiet all the time), which is actually part the plan and the point of having a PJ party there. After we got ready to sleep, I set myself on the middle of the bed between M and FK, which soon I noticed that is a total mistake. On the bed, M put his arms around me and hug me, which I actually enjoyed it. However, Few seconds later, unsurprisingly, FK tried to do the same thing to me as well. Eventually I had to swap the position with M to avoid FK. I wasn't feeling very comfortable with FK the whole night because of this odd, but I still manage to handle it in a very nice manner because I thought he is just lack of social decency and didn't know what to act in front of someone who he likes. However, the next, he did something totally cross the line.

HE FUCKING KISSED ME

he probably thought I was still sleeping and wouldn't notice the kiss. the fact is he was wrong, I had my eyes closed but I wasn't really sleeping that time because I was waken by M when he woke up earlier that morning. I was half sleep and half awake at that time and I totally felt the kiss. It was so GROSS I screamed right after he kiss. I have to say it is not the kiss that gross me out the most, but the creepiness of the action, thinking about kissing me when I cant notice and can't defend myself. I was totally creep out. M asked me what happened. I told him I was kissed my FK and FK didn't say a word at that time. I didn't know what to do except feeling horrid to be honest and FK just pretended nothing had happened.

The whole thing still gross me out and I do not think I will never talk to/meet/contact in any of form with FK again.

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I told the whole incident to one of my friend and he told me that is not count as a molestation. He told me molestation should involved more touching and squeezing. A kiss is not anything like that at all. But I did feel offended by it! Do you guys think that is molestation at all or I am just over reacting?

Met a very nice new firend.......through an annoying friend.

winter is not that bad after all

Its not that much snow this year...

I met this new friend M through my friend FK last Saturday. M is a 23 years old gay Hong Koner who just finished his degree in Hong Kong and now working in this crappy country. Although we live in different cities, after hanging out with Marc twice, I can kinda tell that we would become very good friends in the future, well, at least I would try my best to keep him as a friend, because I figured he is one of the few Chinese gay guys who actually have some comment sense, social decency and able to communicate in a more mature manner.

On the other hand, FK, a 25 year-old Chinese realtor, is the annoying friend. The reason I've never mentioned him here before here in this blog is because he is extremely annoying, it would just get on my nerves if I ever mention anything that he did to me. But whatever, I am going to talk about him right here right now and it would be the only time I will talk about him here. First thing first, he likes me, really likes me, which I didn't notice when I first met him through my friend T, who I have talked about in my earlier blog entries and had brought me into stupid drama before. FK is not handsome at not all but he has this geek look that I quite like when I met him. He is rather quiet when I first met him and that's why it took us half of a year to move on to actually chatting on internet. Once we started chatting I kinda figured out that he likes me. So we moved on to chatting on phone and start "dating". However, after our second date, I decided to stop. Why? keep reading

The first date was okay. However, at the second date, he told me he wanted to watch the movie I have already watched, which is a single man, and asked me if I mind to watch it again with him. It was a very nice movie indeed, so I didn't mind watching it again. Then he told me he had this coupons so I would not need to pay. I thought it was great and fair for me to go to see a movie that I have seen with him. However, When we were going to to have supper before watching the movie, he suggested that I might want to pay for the supper because he paid for the movie. But the thing is, in fact, he didn't really pay for the movie, okay? that was a coupon, and even if he did pay by actually money I still think it was fair for him to pay because I was, in fact, watching a movie that I have watched with him, it was kinda an offer. I can't believe he was "thick skin" enough to ask me to pay for the supper. I didn't seem to have an opinion to refuse it, so I paid. And that supper turned out cost more then that two movie tickets. I wasn't trying to be calculating and I wouldn't have problem with paying half and half for everything including the ticket. but what he did is just not the way it should work.

There's more. On my 25 year-old bday party, He came to my party an hour early. I really didn't know what's in his mind but I have to say I staying with him along was just so creepy since I had no interest in him anymore and started to notice he is a cyberstalker. He looked at my youtube account and murmured, "oh, so your youtube account is xxxxx...." the thing is, he didn't say it in a naughty tone and try to sounds like he was joking, he said it as he has discovered some secret info about me and really will cyberstalk me....THAT'S CREPPY!! OKAY??? god... That's why I will never show him my blog. Oh, I forget to say, he brought all the food that he bought to the party back home without saying a word. Why he did is just weird. That's actually alot more, but I decided I might want to stop here so it won't gross myself out.

lets Talk about music!

I always have a feeling that Sunday should be quiet and artistic.

I think this is the first time I talk about Music in this blog ever. The reason I don't usually talk about music here is not only because I don't think I am knowledgeable enough to talk about it but also I am a very outdated person in terms of meeting new music and very bad at keeping up the music trend. I always notice famous songs that after they got very popular for a long period of time.

I like most kind of music as long as its not too creepy (oh, I've listened to some weird voodoo witch music, its just terrifying!). I love Pop, Jazz, Hip hop, classical, Rnb, Trip hop, Techno, house, Dance...etc I am just not a big fun of metal stuff (but I love Dragon Force!).

But anyway, I still think it will be great to share the music that I like in this blog. I will try introducing one song and artist one at a time. They might be one that you are or ain’t familiar with. I would also like to explore different kinds of new music with you guys too. you guys are welcome to show me music that you like! send me songs by email and I will listen to it and talk about it here.

Lets swimming in the sea of music together!

Well, the first one, I decided to introduce the one I really like, I am sure most of the people are no stranger to his name, he is definitely one of the most talented singer out there, he name is Rufus Wainwright.

Rufus Wainwright is an openly gay singer-song writer, son of the singer-song writer Loudon Wainwright III and was born in New York then lived to Montreal, Canada for most of this childhood with his mother. His sister is Martha Wainwright, a singer-song writer as well. He started his music career in Canada then US. However, his music receives much better critics and review in European countries then in US, which I personally think its strongly due to his music style, which is heavily influenced by classical, opera, folk and new age music. The song “Going to a Town”, in this latest album “Release the stars”, expressed exactly how he is tired of America culture.

However, Instead of “Going to Town”, the song I want to introduce today is “Memphis Skyline”, in his fourth album want two, not only because the song itself is so heavenly beautiful and emotionally moving, but it also has a sorrowful story behind it. The song was written to pay tribute to Jeff Buckley, who Rufus envied with because of Jeff’s popularity when Rufus met him. However, later on he regretted it and felt sad about didn’t have a chance to sing with him before Jeff drowned himself into death in the Mississippi River near Memphis. Therefore he named the song “Memphis Skyline”.

He've never lost a key in his live performance .

Dating an eighteen-year-old (2)

I have a feeling that a lot of people is waiting for the rest of this story.

so, here you go!!

please read dating an eighteen-year-old (1) before you read this post

One condition I made before accepting this invitation is that he had to pay for the supper, I am an ass hole i know, but I do have reason tho. The reason I wanted him to pay is because if he wants to be my top/boyfriend in his age, he really has to do a bit more then other older-then-me guy to prove me he can handle a guy that much older then him. It's totally unfair, but its just something he needs to do if he really want this date. I wasn't being that brutal anyway, I told him he has to pick the restaurant as well so he could choose somewhere inexpensive to go.

Eventually he chose this Japaneses restaurant that he has never been and near where I live. That Japanese restaurant was very neat with a very minimal interior decorations which is a good sign of a authentic japanese cuisine. The menu is actually not that impressive and it doesn't have a broad range of variety of food, I wasn't that disappointed because sometimes that is a good sign of a quality Japanese restaurant as well. Since that restaurant seems to be quite famous for their sushi and they only one chose of sushi dish on the menu (I am not talking about rolls), so I ordered that. Appearenly that is the most expensive dish on the menu, which is like $20. He panicked!! I am sure He was nervous when he saw the price. But honestly, I think that's more then reasonable if they offer good sushi.

"hmmm......chicken teriyaki....hmmm...I wonder if its with the miso soup....." he murmured, when he was deciding what to order.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? who would order chicken teriyaki in a decent japanese restaurant for supper, may be lunch, but definitely not supper. I was sure he worried the cost.

"Order the same thing as me, you came here for the sushi right?" I said, "It's okay, I could pay my own meal, it's important for you to order what you want."

Then he decided to order the sushi plate as well and dismissed my suggestion of paying my own bill.
The sushi turned out to be great, the cut of the fish is very good, most of them are belly cuts except the tuna, but its just hard to have nice fatty tuna outside japan. However, the portion is very small, it might be big enough for a tiny lady but definitely not enough for a grown up men like us. After he paid the bills I suggested to go to an other Japanese restaurant to continue eating and that will be on me.

Did he said anything stupid on the date?

yes he did

Me: So you just believe whatever on the net don't you
Sam: no I don't
Me: Have you heard of the internet myth about growing kittens in a vase and selling it in japan?
Sam: yes, but that is different, that's a fact
Me: OMG, that is a well known internet hoax, how could you believe that is true?? and you DO believe ANYTHING on the net.
Sam: It's a fact! what are you talking about? It's documentary fact and theres photo to prove it, and the web site who record it call the bonsai kitten. (he tried to sound academic here as you can tell)

we kept arguing on that for a while.....

Me: Okay, then find me the web site on your iphone
Sam: Okay

(few seconds later)

Sam: I can't, Its been pulled off (of course, cuz that's a fake site you dump ass)
Me: okay, if that is a fact then find me a reliable news website about this incident.

(few seconds later)

Sam: Oh............oh..........(his voice turning small).....the bonsai kitten thing is a hoax.......you are right

This is how dump he is.

extend reading:
the bonsai kitten hoax

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Today is not my day, But it's okay.

There's only one sun,
but it travels the world every day.
This sun is all mine and I won't give it away!

- Marina Tsvetaeva

I've heard! I wear! but because I thought it was so insignificant I didn't keep in mind who said it, the thing that he said was:

"The only motivation for me to continue to live my life is when I look in the sky, I see the sun"

When I heard it I thought that was totally bullshit and I thought this guy was just being pretentious and trying to be sentimental. I just couldn't believe how a person's life can be inspired by the existent of the sun unless he/she is astronomer. But, today, I experienced the same fantastic sense of touch as the quote above described. I was touched, moved, soothed, when I looked at the sun.

I was so stressed yesterday night mainly because I felt like I can't even finish the thing that I've started, like the my work permit application, the portfolio, website...etc. At that moment, I desperately need an accomplishment, something easy, something don't need lots of effort yet the out come would be remarkable or beneficial. Therefore I started my study for the test of the driver's license, which I should have done ages ago, at the middle of the night. I was pretty tired after the intensive studying. Then I spoke to my sister in Hong Kong for a while, which later I realized I should never have, because the conversation turned out to be very unpleasant and exhausting. My sister is just a very sensitive girl who is VERY easily found things offensive, and it just makes her very hard to talk to sometimes. I spent almost half of the airtime on the phone trying explaining myself rather then actual chatting. The entire conversations consumed a lot more energy than I thought it would be. I was totally, literally exhausted, yet I couldn't sleep because of the conversation, and it was 4a.m.

I woke up at 9a.m. in the morning, which is rather early for me. I felt so refreshing as I walked down the street and under the gentle sun beam, I knew I was ready for the challenge, yes, by challenge, I meant the written driving test that I just decided to do the yesterday. Right before I got in the licensing department I realized I didn't have enough cash for the test so I went to the closest, still far even it's the closest, ATM to withdraw some cash, however, it didn't work. My Bank card just won allow me to withdraw anyway money from it, so I had to walk even further to the branch to fix the issue. Apparently someone was trying to steal my card info so the card locked itself automatically. After all the hassle I finally went back to the licensing department. As soon as I got in the building, I asked the receptionist where the department is and she told me the department has moved, three years ago, to, ironically, somewhere near by the bank that I had just visited. Apparently not all the info on my study guide was correct. After all the walking and suffering, I no longer felt refreshing and my steps were heavy. Then I wrote the test. It wasn't hard, at all, but I must say it was terrifying to wait for the result, especially the officer would actually call them by name and tell the person if he/she pass or fail in front of ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE TESTING ROOM. Failing is not terrifying, you just need another 10 bucks to retake it, but letting others know that you are failing is absolutely terrifying. Trust me, people do fail the test, like half half of them. I am glad that I passed it, otherwise I don't know if I would have the courage to take it again. After I walked out the department, I was still feeling dizzy and heavy. Then I looked into the sky, I saw the sun, it seemed like its telling me everything is okay now. The electric just suddenly went thought my whole body. Then I thought about the poem and that thing that whoever have said, I was touched.

Having a hard time? It's okay, at lease when you look up, the sun is still there.



I treated myself in a jazz bar for supper tonight!




This song just matched my mood


There's only one sun, a short film directed by Wong Kar Wai

Things that I'm doing and thinking about not doing 21-1-2010

I was in the school's computer lap all night yesterday. I had to go there because I needed some of the documents to be scanned for my online work permit application. I am so stressed out by the whole application thing because It seems it would take forever for me to complete. One of the trouble I'm having is my address. I have moved to this new place for like a month already but I still haven't received any mails yet, neither nor my roommate who moved in around the same time as me, therefore I am not a 100 percent sure that address I've got in my hand is absolutely correct and I don't want to put a wrong address on such an important application. Thus I sent myself two letters on Monday and yesterday to confirm if my address is correct. I still haven't gotten the Monday one so I am nervous, now I am waiting for the one I sent yesterday.

Of course I wouldn't go to school just for the scan. I went for the computer as well. My tiny design college has the latest Mac and fastest internet I've experienced. I downloaded tons of "stuffs", almost 10G of them, lol, while I was watching those Dreamweaver tutorials on youtube.

This is one of them, I was be so skeptical when I heard the voice over is a voice of a kid, but it turned out it wasn't as bad as I expected.

I spoke to my mother later yesterday night about my plan to go to London. She simply told me that she doesn't think it's an good idea. She gave me loads of reasons why I shouldn't go but I really can't pay any attention to her because of my disappointment. Eventually I have to ask her to stop and tell her is okay if she thinks its not an good idea, if she doesn't want me to go, I won't and I won't even try argue about it either since I am still using her money. I really wasn't mad at her or anything, I was just disappointed. I was hoping that she did't take it the wrong way and think I was mad at her so I changed the topic, but I still sounded gloomy, I knew it but I just can't help it. One interesting thing about the conversation is when she asked me why I wanted to go. I told her I have friends there I want to visit, then she said to me why can't I just ask him to come over to visit me. I was like, "huh?", few seconds later I finally understand what she meant. She probably thought I want to go to UK is because of W. I didn't bother to explain to her me and W are no long together. Anyway, so, my plan has to dropped again and I guess if I really want to go to UK i have to get my own money, and that motivate me to finish my permit application and my portfolio and found a job asap.

ohhhhh.....I just changed the banner...do you guys like it?

Things that I'm doing and thinking about doing. 19-1-2010

ohhhh!!! I have so much things I want to do!


I am reading Twilight right now...I've never watched the movie, because I think it looks super silly, the only reason I read the book is because the English in it is easy enough for me to read. By the way, although I don't like the movie, I still think Robert Pattinson is rather hot, especially after hearing the rumors about he never showers.....lol, it just hot. (oh yea, I am dirty!)

I am also reading this book too, on writing well, a quite famous book that written by William Zinsser. I am hoping I could writer better after reading it.

I thought about going to England again, more seriously this time. The plan of going to England has always been there since last year. The main reason I dropped the plan last summer is because I had to wait for my study visa to process and the broke up with W also mattered too. That's why I went to Vancouver instead. I thought about that after I finished all the classes last mouth as well, but then I had to found a place to move and to take care all the packing and moving. Moreover, when I finally finished all the courses I started feeling guilty about continuously spending my parents money, especially I've told them I will use the money very carefully and would not want to ask them for money again. They actually told me not to worry about the money several times as long as I use them carefully, I think its very kind of them but I do feel guilty about it and i just want to found a job as soon as possible, so, I dropped the plan again. Now, a month later, I am still working on my work permit application and without a job. I am thinking it actually might be a good time to do during this the time that after I send the application and before I look for the job. I do have several friends in UK I want to visit, like Ri and W and some other friends too. Plus the timing is good as well, the low season allows me to get cheapest tickets. I hope I would have a decision in few days after checking the price and asking my parents opinion.

I also thinking making a Youtube channel, but just dont know what would it be like...I am not even sure if i should do it in English or Chinese.........any ideas?


How could you not love London....these are pictures I've taken 2 years ago when I was in London

oh, I never know this cover exist until today, its so amazing!!!

Dating an 18-year-old. (1)

Oh man, I don't even know where to start.

About a year ago, there was this random white dude added me on facebook. I don't usually add people I don't know in person on facebook but I made a exception on that one. We were nothing more then just random facebook buddies who would leave comments to each others photos occasionally. We weren't even friends so we've never actually chatted and I didn't even know if he is gay or not. Until a week ago he added me on msn, he told me he just moved to the city where I am currently living in and he wanted to date me because he think I am extremely cute. It was very straight forward indeed. I would love to date him if he is not that much younger, well, I've always known he is younger but just didn't know he is that young, 18, are you serious? and the thing is, I am almost sure he is a bottom from his look (like a cutesy emo boy look and always in his tight women jeans just like I do), why would I date a 18-year-old bottom? However, within this three day's chatting, he kept trying to prove me how much of a Top he is, a dominant one, he constantly reinforced. He would say the most nasty things to me to prove to me how "mature" he is, sexually. Honestly, I was a bit turned on by those nasty words but I would never let him know I was turned on by them. In fact, well, if he was telling me the truth, he actually had so much more sex experience then I ever had. He told me his first time was 14. It was just crazy. My first time was fucking 20. I just can't believe how horny this generation's teenagers are. Anyway, he kept asking me for a date and I kept rejecting with the same reason, which is "you are too young", every time when he hears it he told me who shallow I am and how I shouldn't limit myself by the age.

Am I really shallow? Is age really just a game of numbers and only mentality should count? or the idea of men should always be bigger, stronger, older, smarter is inborn in our mind that we just can't resist?

I even told W about this. It was kinda weird, because that was the first time I've ever brought up a topic about dating an other guy. He told me the same thing about I should be open to that and he actually told me I should try to date him but just don't tell him all the details. Then I started thinking maybe I should give it a try to prove I can be "open" too, but I still wasn't sure because some times he does sound like a kid, a kid who wants to talk like a adult. Until 3 days ago, he told me he wanted to guess what kind of person I would want to be with in an relationship.

This is what he said:
Sam=18-year-old boy P=25-year-old Princesm

Sam: You like to be treated gentlemanly, you like to be paid for, but you like to retain some independance.. You like to be talked to sweetly as opposed to harshly. You like to be held
P: okay, tell me more
Sam: Lol.. You like to be cared for but you also are subservient. You like to cook for a man and you like to be appreciated for your talents.
P: I also like to stand tiptoe and kiss a man who is teller then me
P: okay, i will give you a chance
Sam: that's so cute.. That's one of my fave things about shorter guys!

So, we went on a date the following day

to be continued...

It's complicated a movie review

Sigh...I wanted to write so much movie reviews! like the movie A single man, which is directed by Tom Ford. However, Since I watched "It's complicated" and I genuinely love it, I do have a strong motivation to write a review of this nice movie.

okay, lets talk about the story. I am not going to spoil the movie by telling the whole storyline, all I can say is the story is strong and solid, yet I still hear people who in the forum are complaining about how unrealistic the setting of the movie was. The movie was set in a upper-class family who live in Santa Barbara, California. Jane, portrayed by Meryl Streep, own a FANCY bakery shop and her ex-husband, Jake, portrayed by Alec baldwin, is a successful lawyer. I do agree with that accusation in some degree since all the characters don't seem to have anything to worry about except their relationship state and if they don't have enough to drink, yet, I don't think it affects the thing that this very movie wants to tell their audiences, because this kind of complication in relationship does exist in every level of living, and it the fact that this old couple are successful just makes them have less side factors to concern about and be able to think and act in a mature way. (think about if Jane is just a poor women who have to rise three children herself, would she even need to think about if her husband tell her he wants to go back to her?).

One the thing that I really enjoy in this movie is all the characters actually think, especially Jane, unlike most of the Hollywood movie characters who only think in one direction, the character would think about why she does certain things the situation, she doubt, she hesitated and Meryl's delivered it perfectly. Other actors, such as Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin, also did a very good job in this movie. I just have to say I love this sort of old people movie. Yes, the characters suffered in the movie, but they also know how to enjoy their live. Seeing those characters were easy to be impressed by every little thing, like having chocolate croissant and smoking pot, makes me very happy too. I have to say although the situation of these two old couple is complicated, the way that the story is narrated is very articulate, and the complicated situation came very naturally by the weave of different events and emotions. The other good things about this two hours long movie is it doesn't even have a single boring moment, and there are lots of humors scenes and they would just make you burst into laughter. However, the only negative thing I want to say about this movie, which is not even a big deal, is since the scenes are so tightly arranged, few scenes were cut so suddenly from sad to humors and from humors to sad, sometime you would just found yourself riding on a emotional roller coaster, but over all it is still one of the this best dramas of it's kind. I really recommend it. Oh, lastly.....humm......I personally, found John Krasinski very very very cute in this movie, I've never watch The Office, I dont know how he's like in The office , but in this movie, he is just how I want my boyfriend to be!!!!!!!!!!!!awwwwwwwwww >w< (sorry, I'm a bit of an idiot here!! but i can't help myself!)

Love in the club?

There is 365 days in a year so if you divide it into weeks it would have around 51.4 weeks a year. If we go clubbing in all the Fridays and Saturdays, then, including new year and X'mas party, there are approximately 106 clubbing nights a year. People go to clubbing for different reasons, some go there just for fun, some for the music and dance, some for the drama, some for ONS, and, some of them actually look for love. but

Is there love in the club?

A lot of you guys must be laughing at me when you see I even raise this question. There is no love in the club seem to be such an universal truth that every body should have known and I should have known it earlier, way earlier. The main reason I used to believed in it is because of W. I met W in a club in Hong Kong when I was 22 and before that, I didn't believe in love in the club as well. Therefore I was being so skeptical about him, but it turned out he is one of the most decent homosexual human being I have ever met in my life (except the part of how he deals with relationship). Meeting him changed my view of meeting people in the club and that also made me felt like I can see something that other people do not see. You know, it actually feels pretty good to think you have an insight others don't have. But today, after going through so many disappointments, although I don't want to, I have to say that I lost my faith in founding love club anymore. Of course there are exceptions, see how I met W, but the probability of that seems to share the same rate of getting winning a lottery ticket. So, instead of sitting and waiting to win the lottery, why don't we do something constructive? I am not shame of being used to believe such thing as well, this is what youth about? having faith in something silly, even ridiculous sometimes. Therefore, I would suggest you should keep believing in whatever you are believing, time, not me or any books, will tell you what is right in your life. life just would be more fun that way.

happy birthday to me!

Today is my 25 year old birthday!!

This is the first photo result if you type in "Birthday" in google image

In the past week I have successfully ignored the fact that my 25 year old b-day is coming. I'm actually surprised I would be so unexcited by my birthday since I used to be very excited about my own birthday. Although that strategy is a bit silly but it did help me to enjoy my last bit of 24 instead of having the 25 years old OLD panic. However, the consequence of the stupid strategy is I am not able to get any one to have supper with my tonight since it is so last minutes. Well, its true that its abit lonely for me but my friends are going to make it up for me this week, so its better.

Although I didn't get any one to celebrate with me today but I did get quite a lot of greeting calls from my friends including my ex W. He called me on skype and said his happy b-day then we played TV games together for a while. While we were on skype T called and he wanted to talk about tomorrow's made up b-day lunch. When I picked up the phone I kinda used a cutesy tone to talk to him. After I hang up the phone W immediately went, "WHO WAS THAT? WHY DID YOU TALK TO HIM WITH THE CUTESY TONE????", he was totally over acting. I thought he was being silly so I just changed the topic. However, after few minutes of chat he asked he same question again and I was a bit piss at that moment, "THATS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS" I yelled in my mind. The relationship T and I is nothing more then just pure friendship but since I really dont care what he think about me anymore so I didn't bother to explain to him. I decided to just let him to be annoyed.

anyway!!! back to my b-day, as my wish I made in the new year day, my wish is to be a stronger, emotionally and physically and world peace!! (its not lame!!! okay!?!?)

I've moved!

Finally finished moving!

I have to say moving is actually one of the most frustrating thing in my life.

this is actually quite close to finish all the unpacking and ordering the stuff (although it still looks super messy)

Still can't sleep very well yet (yes, that thing one my bed is bubble wrap)

I actually dont feel very good about this new place mainly because the landlord is a bloody blood sucker and a drama maker, therefore I guess I would just found a better place to move when I found a job. I don't know if I've mentioned in this blog that I've just finished all the courses so I could finally look for a job now.

I had this weird dream yesterday while i was taking a nap. I woke up at a sofa in my home in Hong Kong and my mum was preparing supper. The immediate reaction I had was "oh my god, I thought I am still in XXX(the city I am living in right now)" and I was so happy to be back in Hong Kong. You could totally imagine how depressed I was when I finally woke up FOR REAL and realized I am really in XXX. So I have decided to work my butt off to finish the working experience so I can go back to HK for real.

Therefore, this dream plus my current living conditioned gives me a strong motivation to look for a job this follow months.