OMG, The Lost Panet 2 is sosoosososo good. I downloaded the Demo few days ago and played with my friend Mx yesterday. The game play is very good, especially it adopts the co-cop idea from Resident evil 5(both games are from is from capcom). It just feels very good to be able to have the adventure of the game with your friends/strangers, and it actually make those action-advanture games less scary for me to play (I probably would not be able to finish Resident evil 5 if i didn't play it with an other player online). Moreover, The graphic of TLP2 is amazing as well (its even better then Resident evil 5!), I hope the the resolution would pump into 1080p when the official version release cuz it still look a bit rough.
I felt very bad after sending him the email, knowing that he probably would not call anymore.
When I think about all the bad things that he did to me when he was here and all the sufferings that I have been thought plus the fact that he could just talk to me again without mentioning a thing about what happened, not even an proper apology, I really do believe sending him that“never-call-again” email was a right thing to do. However, pathetically, I do really miss him. Therefore sometimes I would tell myself that the fact that he is calling and being all gentle might be the best case scenario already because my dignity will never allow me to call him after what happened, thus I shouldn’t have ruined it, because it might be the only chance for us to get back together.
I am real pathetic, I know.
I kinda regard that I didn’t tell him the “lying” incident was not the whole reason why I don’t want to talk to him anymore because I wanted him to know he has done other bad things to me too, which I was too chicken to complain since I wanted to protect the “relationship” that I thought we had at the time, and to let him suffers from it as well since he seems like he still give a shit.
Anyway, I've spent hours and hours everyday thinking if what I've done was a right thing to do and it was real painful.
Few hours ago, I got this email from him
I'm sorry... I really miss you as a friend, and hope you wont be angry at me forever.. I'm sorry I hurt you - I was wrong. Dont want to bug you if you dont want to talk to me, so if you feel like you could forgive me, maybe you could get in touch some time..
W
Miss me as a friend? What? Friend? What on earth would make you think that we were friends before? Have I ever said I want to be friend with you? Anyway, it wouldn't be any different if he said he misses because of other reasons and at least I got a relatively more thoughtful apologize now then the shitty one that he wrote me before. I don't know what to write back to him yet, in fact, i don't even know what i am supposed to feel right now...
W called again yesterday and I knew he would call.
I actually planned to tell him not to call anymore when he calls again because I started thinking about him more and more after he called last week
but i didn't tell him when he called yesterday, instead, we had a pleasant conversation for more then an hour
However, the conversation still ended badly.
W: How was your weekend? me: Not much, you? W: not much either, my friends were busy, so I was staying at home all the time me: same here, especially I don't have much friends left in here now and i found it hard to know new friends W: I found it hard too
Right at that moment, It reminded me how he laid about meeting his "friend" who he met from internet through a dating website. I just can't help to get angry
me: How come? I think you are good at that. W: No i am not me: well, you have your way to do it W: what? me: I said you have your way to do it
Then he realized what I was referring to then we both went silence. Then I realized I had said something I shouldn't have said because i don't want him to know I still give a shit. Afterward, I told him I had things to do so i had to go. At the moment, i know I have to end it, I can't talk to him like I am some sort of time bomb that I don't know when I will explode.
I sent him this email few hours after the phone call.
W,
I had a really good time talking to you today and last week, but I just can't keep talking to you and pretend nothing have happened. What happened still hurts, therefore I think we should stop talking. I am sure you will understand and I hope we can be friends someday.
regards P
It hurts so bad to tell such things to a person who you love...
Last Sunday, I got a phone call while I was preparing the "peanuts chicken feet" soup for the night. I totally thought It was my friend R because I was going to meet her the next day. However, when I answered the phone I had this unfamiliar voice saying hello to me but without calling my name. I immediately thought that is a miss-dial or one of those stupid cold-calls.
him: Hello me: yes? him: hey, it's me me: you are? him: guess who i am (honestly I really HATE when people do this) me: arrrr, T? (I didn't think he is T, but if he insist that I have to guess, then that would be my only answer) him: no me: hmmmm, i really have no idea, can you just tell me who you are? him: It's W.
I was in shocked and froze for few seconds because I really didn't expect he would call me, at least not by phone.
that was the first conversation we had since we had a fight in july
Then I bursted into laughter and tried to use the laughter to cover my embarrassment. In the past two years, we talked at least once a week and now I don't even recognize his voice. I was embarrassed but I also felt quite good by the fact that I was forgetting him and now he knows it too.
I didn't expect he would call because the last time he told me he would, he didn't, which is a good thing actually, I know if we keep talking I will never be able to forget him, I would rather things end like that. Sometimes I do wonder why he is not calling, which I was doing again in that morning. I told him that, I told him it's interesting that I was just thinking about him in the morning and now he is calling. Right after that he went, "oh, why were you thinking about me?" I guess he wanted me to say i miss him but obviously i didn't. Then he told me he misses me a lot but I didn't say anything afterward. Then we chatted like how we usually do. I told him I went to Vancouver and he told me he went to LA in the same period of time. I found that rather ironic that we were actually that close geographically. In our conversation, he was constantly telling me he "have so much things that he wants to tell me", I guess that is the other way of him saying he misses me. Anyway, I ended our conversation by telling him I have to continue cooking, which is partly true, but the fact is I can not bear the fact that he is always the one who ends the conversation in the past anymore, therefore, i have to be the one who ends the conversation this time and will not give him a chance to believe he is getting the same old person who can take advantage of back.
The next day, A and I walked around UBC (gosh, UBC IS beautiful) and eventually Kate joined us since she had been hanging around there already. However, it soon became the worst day of my trip because it revealed what Kate really is, a paranoid psycho. Actually A did kinda warn me about that but apparently A was being too nice she didn't really went all the way to the details. Since there were so many little annoying incidents and conversations that happened that day, I am not going to go over them one-by-one here. All I can say is Kate is a girl who is actually not that confident with her physical appearance and she clearly suffers from her social life. Thus it makes her so paranoid about the idea of "hanging out with a friend" and "how she thinks people would think about her". She also can be EXTREMELY pushy when she wants/needs to "hang out with" someone, yea, that sounds like a psycho isn't it. Anyway, one might ask how the whole "Kate is a social paranoid" thing relates to Vancouver geeky boy(vgb). The answer is that it means she will never introduce me to vgb no matter how many times I ask her to. I noticed that when I asked her if she could ask vgb to have supper with us or going to the beach with us the next day,I got ambiguous blahs as an answer so eventually i realized no matter how many times I ask her she will still give me the same old answer. Therefore, I decided to give up on knowing this vgb through Kate and planned on getting to know him through one of the most important inventions of the world, Facebook.
That is the story of me meeting a guy who I didn't really meet in Van.
Honestly although I do find this vgb quite attractive, I've decided I should just to be friends with him because I really don't need another long distance relationship after W. Another reason I want to know this guy is because Kate literally described him as a perfect (gay) human being therefore I really want to know if such a perfect man could really exist since I am disappointed in gay man because of W, whom I thought was so perfect but it turned out he is not.
I sent my first message to him about 2 weeks ago which is a week after I went back home and we have been chatting since then.
One funny thing is since I am pretty sure this vgb has never seen the psycho side of Kate so I had to tell him not to tell Kate that we are chatting now because the whole spying on a friend's friends thing is rather embarrassing for me (which is partly true, but, the truth is i am sure if Kate knew that I started talking to him once i added her on facebook she will think i am using her and stealing a friend of her from her, which is a normal social paranoid would do) :P
As I promised I am going to talk about the story of the boy who i DIDN'T meet when I was in Vancouver in this post. However, before I talk about this guy I have to talk about this girl "Kate" (false name of coz) because she is kinda our Cupid, but a very annoying one. When I was in Vancouver two weeks ago, "A" threw a Mafia game party for me at her house since she knew I love playing the game Mafia (of cuz she loves it too). Mafia is a game that requires numerous intelligent players to involve (at lease 8 players), therefore it’s very hard to gather the party to make a successful Mafia game. That night A invited lots of her friends included her high school classmate Kate. My first impression of Kate was that she was a friendly, confident, intelligent girl who doesn't really care about her appearance. The game was really fun but several people left after few games and at the end there were only 7 of us left in the game. Then I asked the remaining people if they know anyone live nearby they could invite to join the game. Then Kate immediately said she knew a guy who might be able to join the game and this gay is very hot and he is also gay as well. Then I was like, "yea, that's great, call him now". However, she suddenly changed her mind, she told me that might not be a good idea to invite him because he had to ride the bike home after the game and it was late night already. That really doesn't sound very convincing to me and I think it was very random for her to change her mind all in a sudden but I knew there's nothing I could do to make her to invite that cute gay guy to join us, I was disappointed indeed. Then I asked her if she could show me his photos on her facebook. This guy, lets call him Vancouver geeky boy (vgb) for now, is actually a fairly sweet, geek looking guy (he wears geeky glasses in most of his pictures on facebook), yet he is not "hot", which is what Kate described him as (I really doubt if Kate know what "hot" means after I see vgb's picture). Nevertheless, I personally do found him and attractive especially his geeky look (I am a big geek lover, I have no idea why :-D). Then I started asking Kate about this vgb. Kate seemed very excited when she talked about him and she just kept telling us how sweet and talented he is. Eventually we carried on the topic after the game while we were having bubble tea. She told us it's a pity that he is gay otherwise they would be dating already. Honestly I don't see that coming even if vgb is a straight guy (of course I didn't saying anything). At that time, I've felt very intrigued by who vgb really is and I know I have to find a way to get Kate to introduce us...
Okay, I know I said I was going to talk about the guy who I DID NOT meet in Vancouver in this post but I just can't not talk about trueblood
Since I was in Vancouver when the last episode was aired and I didn't have a chance to watch it until few days ago.
I have to say the last episode of the famous vampire series is very disappointing! When it started to show the end credits I was like "what the fuck? It’s finished? No way!". That entire episode only included trash talks between Jason and Andy, the boring scene of Bill staying in the vampire queen's mansion and Lafayette's stupid panic over Eric. I have no fucking clue why Sookie would lay down with that old guy in her house for so long with no reason, It was just stupid. I really hope all the boredom this episode has is just the strategy of presenting the season finale, which is going to air two weeks later.
Key scenes of episode 11 (there's only one)
Cross-dressing Eric, cute!
if you want to see more alexander skarsgard do cross-dressing, you might want to check out the movie Kill your darlings.
I'm really sorry it took so long for me to update my blog since coming back from Vancouver, it's mostly because I've been meeting up with friends. Anyway...
To sum it up, let me say: the trip was amazing!!!
I just can't tell you guys how much this trip means to me. Honestly I really didn't expect this trip would be this fun and amazing when I decided to go. Now, I have to take back what I had said about Vancouver... which was that I thought it wouldn't surprise me. In fact, this city amazes me in many ways.
First, the food there is AMAZING! Japanese food is really popular there and they are all very good (but it might just be because I have a nice local escorts who brought me to the nice ones). Anyway not only Japanese but all the food there is just generally very nice, I didn't even have one bad meal there, some might be less impressive, but over all they are really good. Second, streets are so green, there are so many trees in the city so you will always find yourself walking under trees. Plus the nice weather when I was visiting, it was probably one the best downtown walking/shopping experiences i have had. Oh oh oh, the streets are very clean and neat as well, you could tell by not being able to see any ugly cheap graffiti there.
isn't it just look amazing?
Deep fried big fat oysters burger, so oily so yummy
streets and parks are very clean, instead of ugly cheap graffiti, you see cute installation
gas town, so nice
Gay scene
There are two major gay clubs in Vancouver which are Odyssey and Celebrities (yea, I know, it sounds so lame). I was lucky enough to be able to go to both clubs in different days during the trip. The first one I went was Odyssey, I went on Thursday because every Thursday night they have a event called "Shower Power", which they put a naked gay dancer into a glass made rectangular tube with a shower tap to let them shower/dance inside. Honestly those beefy guys aren't really my cup of tea but I still quite enjoy clubbing there. One thing I found it quite pleasing to dance there is the pleasant atmosphere of the mixture of different races, especially between White and Asian (interestingly I didn't see lots of black there, why would that be?). Where I am living, most White and Asian gay guys are usually stay with their own crowds. I was surprised there were quite a lot of people there even in the weekday too. The second club I went to is Celebrities. I am not sure if its because I look kinda new to them therefore I actually got checked out quite a lot. The clubbing experience there was nice too, I love it for the same reason as the other club since these two clubs don't have much difference.The only problem I have with both clubs is their music kinda sucks and the worst thing is both club play the same style of songs, which is mixing-all-the-music-into-gayish-dance-music songs. I understand lots of gay guys do like house/dance music, but is it necessary to play the exact same kind of music when there are only two gay major clubs there? I have to say I really hate when they mix hip-hop songs into dance music. I really don't see what's the point of doubling the beats of lady gaga's songs. Anyway, although the music was not that great but the whole clubbing experience was still quite pleasant.
to be continued... (I am gonna talk about this guy who I DID NOT meet in Van in the next post)
This is just the second day of the trip I've already fallen in love with this city. I must say Vancouver is such a nice city which amazed me in quite a lot of reasons. okay, honestly i dont have alots of time, i have to get ready for lunch. I will definitely tell you guys more about this trip and upload some pictures when i come back. love~
I am now at the airport waiting to get into the plane to go to Vancouver, the mysterious city in Canada where full of wealthy Hong Kong people. My friend even told me because of Van is now heavily populated by Hong Kong immigrant therefore Vancouver has a nickname called "Hongcouver". The reason I am traveling so far away for a city that so lack of surprises for me is because I want to visit A. I believe I had mentioned A before in one of my older post, which featured a conversation between us about W. A is one of my very best friends who I can really share absolutely anything to her (I bet she must feel flattered when she read this, but A, don't be too proud and keep reading) and I always get very rational and practical responds (I guess I had mention this before too). She is now studying for her master degree in UBC, one of the top two Universities in Canada, the other one is U of T, therefore I decided to use my last bit of my last summer holiday to visit her. To be very very honest Vancouver is actually not where I want to go originally. For those who has been reading this blog for awhile (I don't even know such person exist) must know that I originally planned to go to London to visit W. However, bad things do happen, so the trip to London is cancelled and since I have no plan to go back to Hong Kong therefore the plan became going to Canada to visit A. Moreover, Vancouver is my mum once told me Vancouver is very pretty place and I know if I am not going now I will never want to go again. Since this is a last minute thing and sort of a Healing trip for me from the trauma of not being able to go to London to see W and especially this is VANCOUVER, therefore I am not really expecting any exciting adventure. However… This is the conversation between me and my friend Lu
Lu, "Wow, you going to Vancouver?" Me, "Yea, since I am not going to London." Lu, "Are you going to the Rocky Mountain as well? I've heard it's beautiful there" Me, "Oh...well, who said we have to fill in our time with activities when we travel? I think sometimes traveling can also be relaxing, empty and slow." Lu, "Oh…whatever you like then, it's just not my travel principles."
However…after being a cynic for awhile…
Me, "Hey A, Is Rocky Mountain far away?" A, "yes, very far away" Me, "oh…well…fine then…I am just curious…" :-P
minor spoiler attention: this post contains minor spoilers of the TV show TrueBlood episode 10
I KNEW IT, I knew sookie is more then just a telepathic and she has the power to destroy that bitch Maryann. I knew it! really!
but wait...Sookie Stackhouse, how could you have sex with Eric!?!? Huh?? How could you do this to Bill !? I know Eric is super hot, but still...you've got yourself a handsome vampire already, girl, you got to learn to embrace of what you have and stop being greedy.
So far the story is going as I predicted - When Bill left sookie to found helps from Lorena, Sookie will somehow be in a danger position again and Eric will save her life once again at the very last minute then Sookie will fall in love with him after then. Sigh......poor Bill, I will totally take you if Sookie is really going to leave you for Eric. Hey, here my neck (yes, I am proud to be a gay fang-banger).
By the way, there is actually another Hottie in the show that I really like. Nope, not Jason. Its Terry!!
Terry Belleflur is played by Todd Lowe. He is sosoosososososo Cute, He looks like a gentle teddy bear in the show!!
Key scenes of episode 10
Sookie! How could you...
Bitch, I want slap you so hard that you will not need botox to get your facenumb
I don't look too bad compare to the model behind me, right?
It's weird, I'm starting to feel guilty when I stop updating this blog even I don't know if anyone is reading it, Damn!
I actually have quite a few topics I really want to cover in this blog, but it just takes so long for me to organize my writing since I am really suck at writing.
Anyway Anyway, I went shopping with one of my best friends Z last Wednesday. The weather was a pretty pleasant therefore we decided to take some pictures as well (see up there). It's been a long time since last time I actually went shopping, which differ from just walking past a mall. We walked around the expensive shopping area in Town. Of course I love fashion since i am a homo, however, since i am still a poor student I rarely get brand name stuff even I have a part time job cuz being a visa student is just so expensive which makes me feel really guilty if I spend any money on brand name clothing. Moreover, I always think it is really stupid to chase just the brand name but the design (I just couldn't understand why people would spend hundreds of dollars to get a T-shirt with just has the logo "Y3" on the chest, as well as the ugly coach bag with the ugly coach pattern). I do believe cheap clothing could look equally cool if it is well mixed and matched. However, my cynic ran away immediately once I got into those expensive stores. I became the little child who is looking at colorful sweets with his sparkling eyes. "We don't stand a chance when we face true beauty, not even a glance" said one of my favorite writer Vincci Cheuk when she describe the moment when she saw a Marc Jacobs dress.
After shopping and dinner I went to Z's new place and stayed there for 2 days since her girl friend, yes it's HER GIRL FRIEND, were gone to the states for couple days. Z's new place is located far up north of where I live at a remote country side (had to take about an hour bus to get there, geez). But since the place is so far away its extremely quiet at night it made the best sleep I've had since I've moved to downtown. I actually brought my computer with me and optimistically thought I would be productive when I am in a quiet place like that, but it turned out me and Z was just eating and sleeping and watching movie all day. Well, in a VERY optimistic side, that is what holidays for, am i right?
This is a rather embarrassing topic to talk about since I do have real friends reading this blog regularly but I am still going to write it.
When I was taking a bus to go to collage today there was this guy sitting beside me, tall, average looking Caucasian. Soon I noticed there was a subtle whiff of body odor exuded from his body, it wasn't very strong but enough for me to notice. He is not particularly handsome, but his odor is more then enough to give me a serious hard on especially I hadn't wanked for the day. His odor was driving me crazy through my entire trip. I was a bit disappointed when he got off the bus.
Yes, ONE of my fetishes is man's body odor (skip this post if you are disgusted) . One might call it the natural scent of human, body aroma, but for me body odor is body odor, it doesn't really matters how people call it. However, the body odor that I mentioned is different from the pungent smell after serious sweating, but obtained naturally by merely daily activities and their emotions (i hope you could understand what i meant, i really don't know how to explain better). Yet not every men's odor would attract me. I would only attracted by a very particular type of body odor. I've figured I would attracted to odor that similar to mine. I would say My fetish of body odor is quite strong and very immediate as well. This is simply a different realm of attraction other then the attraction obtained by my vision. That's why sometimes I got aroused by not-so-good looking man (geek usually) since they don't care about their appearance they wouldn't even bother to put deodorant, such a stupid dilemma. I wonder if there's any handsome dude would be confident enough with their odor and therefore they wouldn't apply any deodorant (its very unlikely i guess).
Therefore i don't think there's such body odor could actually be bad, there's only body odor we don't like. I think the following quote explains it pretty well.
"...there’s really no such thing as an intrinsically “bad smell.” Rather, there are only smells; and how we perceive them is largely an artifact of our particularly human evolutionary heritage. To say that rotting flesh smells disgusting is similar to saying that the sunset looks beautiful—there’s no “beautiful-ness” quality intrinsic to the sunset just as there’s no “disgusting-ness” intrinsic to rotting flesh. Rather, rotting flesh and sunsets are only perceived this way by the human mind; as “phenomenological” qualities, adjectives such as “beautiful” and “disgusting” merely describe how we subjectively experience the natural world. I can assure you that whatever particular scents you find repulsive, my dog, Gulliver, would likely perceive as irresistibly appealing. And I mean rotting flesh and just about anything else you can think of, with the exception perhaps of skunk odor and his own feces..." By Jesse Bering@scientificamerican.com
I remember one summer I worked at the book fair in Hong Kong for few days when I was like 16 or 17 (can't remember when). I was one of the two cashiers (the other one is a girl). One day that girl was call in sick so her place was substituted by another co-worker, a fairly good looking guy with athletic body. I think that was probably my first actual turn on by a guy's odor. I was so horny and I had to wank at the exhibition hall's toilet (come on! I was in adolescence age). That was one of my craziest thing I did in teen age (see? I am not that crazy after all). My first boy friend, a french Canadian, has very strong BO too (in case you don't know, french is famous for having strong BO, that's why perfume are so popular in this country). I wouldn't say I dislike the type of odor his has but it's just way too strong it totally passes the line of turning me on, especially when he gets aroused (when we were having sex), his body odor would just go crazy, Its like 10 time worst then the stench of lame (if you ever had authentic lame dish)
Fetish is an interesting thing. Everyone has it but no one would likely to bring it up in a conversation (friends would talk about anything about sex like position, sex length. level of joy, but their fetish). Yes fetish is a very private thing indeed, But I suppose the main reason people are not willing to talk about it is because they are kinda ashamed of it (actually I still feel embarrassed talking about it right now right here). I could totally imagine most of the people would go "ewwwwwwwwwwww" after they've heard any fetish and it doesn't matter what the fetish is. Some would even ends the topic with a stupid joke about one's fetish, like:
Tom: "I have feet fetish" Tom's friend: "Well, then please remind me not to wear sandals next time I see you"
I was once in the similar situation. I knew my friend wasn't meant to be mean and he just don't know how to respond since it is not a usual conversation topic and making a joke seems to be the universal answer to all awkward moments. However, I must say this move is actually rather irritating since it needs a lot of courage to share one's fetish to someone else and I am sure if you are being shared with such issue you are actually being trusted and seen as a very close/good friend of his/hers, therefore I think we should take it carefully if we are being shared with this issue.
minor spoiler attention: this post contains minor spoilers of the TV show TrueBlood episode 9
wahhh!!!!!
OMG!! Today's episode is sososo good!!
key scenes in today's TrueBlood: Sookie sucked Eric (you have to see why !!) Yaoi scene between Eric and Godric!!! ( I love it !!!)
Eric was being such a bad ass it made him even more attractive! Damn!
this episode also starts the classic battle between a gentleman (Bill) and a bad boy (Eric), just like many other "love battles" like Mark and Daniel in Bridget Jones's Diary, Roger Federer and Rafael Nadal at the Wimbledon glass field, lol
Who would you choose if you were sookie??
you know Bill is always my favorite character through out the whole show, not only because he is very mature, both body and mind (yes I admit i like mature guys and he is exactly my type), but also he is so sincere, gentle, caring. the part that he almost kill himself to save sookie at the last season's finale it just melts my heart......sniff*
HOWEVER, since there are more and more depictions on Eric's character I start gradually liking him now(when I first start watching the series Eric is nothing but a bad ass with supper pretty face). But now it shows that he could be quite gentle too (at least to the one that he likes, like sookie). Therefore if the show continues showing the tenderness of him (I am sure it will), i will not be able to resist to fall for him just like how sookie will (i am sure).
please allow me to predict whats going to happen between Bill, Eric and Sookie in the later episodes. Bill will make a big mistake by putting sookie in risk again (he has done it million times) and since Eric is able to sense sookie now he is able to save her life in time and that is when sookie start falling for him and start dating him. At the same time bill feels really guilty by putting sookie in risk again and decides to let go of her and go back to Lorena. However, Eric finally realize who sookie really love is not him but stupid Bill. Therefore he would finally let her go back to Bill.
I told ya its very hard to write a movie review!!!
That's why it took three days have have the new post!! :P (seriously, because i had to write down points and organize them and i am really not good at that.)
Anyway, I am quite happy because I've seen some growth of this website (more new people are visiting!). It really makes a different when you know people is actually reading my site and it gives me the motivation to write too. I promise I will keep on writing things on this site more regularly, yay~~~
Moreover, I've create a new email account for this blog, which is princesm.boy@gmail.com, you guys are welcome to email me anytime if you have anything to tell me, DON'T SEND ME SPAM MAIL PLEASE!!!!
*Spoiler Attention : skip this post if you're planning to watch this movie
I used to write a lot of film reviews when I was younger because I think the analyzing process would make me be able to appreciate/depreciate the film even more. However, since I've seen more movie as i grew older, I also have more insight in movies. It makes it really hard to write a decent review to cover every aspect of the film. However, since I've got this blog, I think I should share my thoughts here, at least those films that i enjoy watching and i am writing the movie "district 9" today.
First of all, I must say this movie is really good
Allow me to broke the movie down into different categories so i could express better.
Storyline/plot: Honestly the major story line isn't that impressive. Aliens who are stuck on earth for 20 years wants to found a way out and one of them ends up team up with a mutated human to against the avaricious government who wants to have the control of the alien weapon. However, what it really impresses me is the message behind his story and the way of how its presented. The setting of the story raise up a bunch of interesting questions:
First, Why there are so much similarities between this alien and human? why alien has to similar to human at all? They are aliens!!! they could be in any form and any size that we have not yet seen in our planet. However, In this movie, they are not only having similar body size, body figure, but also similar emotions, psychological mind set and even language as human (these high intelligent creatures use the vibration of air (sound) to deliver messages just like how human does! ha! how amazing!) . I seriously think this is a deliberate idea,humanizing the aliens, to create the metaphor of how strong nations treat the "alienated" nations.
Why those aliens have greater intelligence but they act like savages on earth?
Why don't they have a huge attack against human with their powerful weapon?
I think all of those questions are led to the same question - How Human treats others who are different from us (or majority) when we know/think we have more power over "them".
Character development: Brilliant! One of common problem in Hollywood productions is characters are usually too flat. What I meant by "flat" is in those Hollywood movies, good guys are only presented as a good guy and bad guys only do bad things and they can never "think" and "change". However, in this movie, the depiction of characters' mind are so well presented especially the main character, Wikus, the good guy in the movie, however, as the story goes by it shows more and more flaws in his personality. The depictions of the changes of his mind set are so well done it really surprised me.
Acting: excellent. The movie is basically only led by the main character, Wikus, who is played by Sharlto Copley, originally a screen writer and movie producer, I just can't believe this is his first movie and I seriously think he would trump over most of the so-called Hollywood actors if he tries to be a full time actor. As i said, since there are lots psychological changes in the main character's mind through out the entire movie, his interpretation of the character is so well it perfects his performance.
Cinematography: Very well done as well. Obviously this is not the first movie that shot as a documentary (I am sure lots of people recalls Cloverfield when they watch this movie). However, in my opinion, I think the cinematography in this movie is slightly better then cloverfield because the control of the balance of between being too documentary or movie like is handled very well. Moreover, audience wouldn't feel dizzy after watching it like after watching Cloverfield.
In my opinion, although this movie might not be a classic, it definitely is one of the best movie in the same category. :)
I dont want to be this kind of "Orientals", ok? photo by Bernard-z@flickr
Before I started this blog I almost never read other people's blog. It's not only because I don't like reading but also I don't give a shit on other people's life and thoughts. However, after I started the blog I am more engage to this nation of blog and I started to read more and more blog. It proves that i was wrong about what i thought, I do give a shit and I did found some of the blogs are actually rather interesting, like this one, gay banker. Recently he has posted a entry about if calling an Asian an "Orientals" is politically correct, Click here to see the post. After I read that I made the following respond.
Hello, this is my first time leaving a comment here. Hello GB!
First of all i am a Chinese gay guy who is living in a western country (trying to be politically correct.).
I think when it comes to term like that you get to be very careful cuz it falls into the dilemma of labeling and being labeled. It just like gay guys could call themselves "faggot" it doesn't means anyone else could call them the same way, as well as the word "nigger". I am sure lots of "south-east" people would referred themselves as "Orientals" but i doubt they would all enjoy being called "Orientals" by a white/black/who ever not the same race as they are. I would say "Asians/ south east Asians" are much better terms because they are very direct and they just say the place they come from, just like we call European European because they are from Europe. However, the term "Orientals" is so much more complicated. It has so much connotations behind the term and most of the connotation is just based on feeling since "orientals" is an adjective as well. Its like "yes, i am from Asia, but when you call me Orientals i would imagine you are actually thinking me wearing a "Oriental" rattan hat and standing on the "Oriental" boat holding a bamboo and singing an "Oriental" song in a "Oriental" environment " (I know its retarded to think that way but I just do) oh....i think the word "retarded" fall into this dilemma too....sorry for using that
Anyway, I think its very sincere of you to actually take this issue seriously.
by the way, i don't think i would like being called 'Orientals" and i was once being called "color people" by a random guy in front of my place and I just slammed the door. /(> o<)/
OK.. I've been away from town for a few days but hopefully talk to you soon.
I guess he is trying to tell me he was away so he couldn't go online to call me for the past few days.
I know he goes back to his parents place on the weekend fairly often but COME ON!!!!! I sent the email which i told him he could call me on skype last Wednesday, was he out last thursday and and friday too?? grrrr, this guy disgust me!
I should have written this much earlier because it was few weeks ago when I first met this guy at the first day I work out in YMCA.
I went there for a swim that day and i saw him at the pool- A quite cute looking Caucasian male in average height with very tanned skin and slim body. I was swimming at the open area at the pool and he was swimming at the fast lane (I always avoid to swim a the lane cuz i really hate the idea of some one is running/chasing after me). When we were both standing at the side of the pool taking a rest I sort of noticed he looked at my way quite often. suddenly he went "excuse me..." the immediate reaction i had was moving away because i thought he wanted to pass my way, but he didn't, then i noticed he might have wanted to talk to me, but whatever, then i continue swimming. After that, back to exactly same situation, we were standing at the side, he went "it's a busy day, isn't it?" at the lowest possible amount of volume. Then i was like "oh, is he talking to me?" then i looked around and there was no one there then i realized he might be actually talking to me. Since I wasn't sure if he was "really" talking to me so i didn't respond at all...
I saw him few days ago at the shower (quite embarrassing) and I noticed he peeked at me (of cuz i know, becasue i peeked too) but not in a obvious way.
I know we might end up becomes no more then two strangers but at least now i have one more reason to go gym, right?
I suppose anyone who've ever been to the gym would had the similar experience, am i right? or I am the only slut here?
Few days ago, I sent an email to W telling him if he really want to talk he could call if he sees me online. (since I've deleted him on skype, as well as msn)
I dont have one concrete reason to explaiun why i did that becasue i am sure it has more then one reason why i did that.
All of my friends asked me why am i doing it to myself. They're all telling me the reason i am making myself available is because i want to lie to myself me and him still have hope.
That is very normal to think but i really don't think thats true, at least not the major part of it.
yes I love him and i really hope he could do things to make me forgive him. but i know it is not happening and i know exactly there're no hope between us.
In the past three weeks, I thought about him every single day but every time i thought about him and the things he that did to me(not only that meeting-online-gay-guy incident) i would get very pissed and angry. What he's been doing is manipulating my love for him. I just can't forgive him by doing that to me. I know I am responsible too, i should have gone away from him long time ago but i didn't. Anyway, i just know we can't be together anymore, not even friends.
"Oh, I wish I have time to XXX!" It properly the most common thoughts to come across when people who is being busy and just not be able to anything else other then their work. Making fancy meal happens to be one of the things I would think about at that moment. However, it doesn't mean i would really do it when i have free time again. Just like now, I thought I would try so many recipe during this summer holiday, but in fact, I haven't been trying anything fancy until yesterday.
This is what i made Potato Gnocchi with Veal and Mushroom Sauce. see recipe
for this special occasion I invited Clare to join me, we had the supper at my balcony. This is actually the first time i ever have a meal at my balcony. supper at the balcony with wine and jazz, It was just what i wanted. :P
Trust me, it IS very good, you guys should try it
we went to clubbing later on the nite, but i guess we went there too late, we waited like an hour (seriously!) to get in the club, lucky the music in there is very nice, it makes a perfect night. :)
"When you hang out a bunch of gay guys, you will get nothing but drama"
from the greatest poet - Princesm
Last week, I went to S's friend's birthday Karaoke party with S (of cuz). However, sicne T and S had broken up and i will be likely to stay in S's place for the night after karaoke therefore I asked if T mind if i go. well i know it is not necessary but I still did because i kinna know how it feels to have your good friend hanging out with your ex-boyfriend who you still love/hate. When i asked T he acted like he does care and tell me he is fine with that. I knew that might not be totally true but the thing is I really really wanted to sing karaoke and since he has said yes, so if he regreds, it will not be my fault.
the karaoke night was fine and It was fun too. However, when S was driving me to his place he suggested somehting fairly interesting which wow me a little bit.
S "Hey, i want to tell you something" me "shoot" S "I just washed the bed sheet of my bed, therefore i took the one from the guest room" me "oh?" S "Dont worry, my bed is enough for two people" me "arrr" <WHAT THE FUCK? you are suggesting we should sleep together??> S "Don't worry, i won't do anything, it just my bed is the only bed has a bed sheet" me "arrrr.........i think i can sleep without a bedsheet" <OMG, that is the lamest excuse i have even heard to get someone sleep on their bed>
Then it was silence. However, he will asked me if i want to sleep on his bed and i used my last bit of energy and went, "thank you, i think i am fine."
S has been sending obvious singles since i've met him when he was still with T. Every time i could just play dumb and pretend I didn't know and ignore it. But this time, since this excuse is so lame it made me look so weird when i play dumb dumb.
S, i might have screwed you to if you are just someone. Its too bad you are not
I called T the next day at the midnight. T seemed he was half-sleeping. After i said hi he went:
T "how was it?" me "how was what?" T "how was the love making last night? me "what? love makeing? whit whom?" T "your friend" me "my friend, you mean S?"
well, obviously T is jealous which i am not surprised at all, although i knew he was half-joking but isn't it a bit uncool to say something like that to your friend? moreover, i have asked him if he mind and he said no. He has absolutely no right to say such things to me and i am offended indeed.
me "T, I am your friend, what you have said is an insult" then T was playing dumb, he went "oh what did i say" me "you were accusing me slept with S" T "i didn't say that" me "i don't feel like talking now, bye"
yes, I hanged him up, otherwise I will be wasting my time if i carry on the conversation him.
Few days ago, W left me message in skype telling me he miss and and miss talking me in early morning.
but i didn't reply
The next day, He messaged me again in the morning. I usually wouldn't wake up that early but because i had a appointment with the hair dresser that day therefore i was there when he me messaged me. He said hey and few seconds later he tried to call me from skype. I was so nervous i didn't know what to do at all. It wasn't as easy as just ignoring his text message. I don't know how to explain why but its just hard. I felt like i have to make a decision in such a short time. It didn't occrue to me ignoring his phone cell is an opinion, all i can thought about was whether "answer" or "refuse". Trust me, I want to talk to him more then anything in the world, but i refused his call. Again, i really didn't know what to think, but that time I know if i answer the phone call I will fall into his trap again.
then he sent the following message to me:
"P, I would not bug you and annoy you again so i won't call you again, I just want to tell you I really miss you and want to talk to you"
I was so nervous my sweat is all over my body. I was sad too, sad that he told he would not call again.
I tried so hard to type something but i couldn't. After 10 minutes of struggling, i finally went:
I know I know, i haven't been updating my blog for a week.
it just.....I haven't been in a good mood since i stopped talking with W. I basically couldn't do anything. I was just working out and watching drama in the past two weeks. I am never a work out person (please dont imagine me having a masculine body, gross) but during the first week of ignoring him. I know and i told myself i need something to focus on beside thinking about him so i joined a gym near by where I live. The original intention of joining it is just for their swimming pool cuz Swimming can clear my mind because when i swim, I could only think about swim but nothing else. It feels so great to be in the water and being care free, both mind and body. I almost go to gym everyday now and now I've already lost 4 lbs and my muscles are all toned up. I guess I shouldn't be too sad cuz at last i dont feel trashy about my body anymore.
oh, by the way, after a long drag, T and S finally broke up (i am sure its not because of me :P). However, the one who really suffer from this doesn't seem to be either T or S but me cuz they both keep blaming each other to me after the break up. honestly i really dont want to know, but since i am their friend i guess i have no choose but to suck it up. the only thing i could do save myself some brain cells is to shut up and listen to them otherwise if i dare to give any comments and agreemants of what they said it means i am willing to be the judge between them that means I will even suffer more.
anyway, T and S, good luck with your break up and I dont want to know more about how much you guys hate each other
These photos are taken when they were in Portofino, Italy
I am not a big fan of Wilson brothers, i think Wilson brothers (luke and owen) are one of the most horrible actors in Hollywood. On the other hand, I actually quite like Woody Harrelson and his acting and his craziness in his acting. Honestly i think This is very hot since both guys look very straight, especially Woody. Anyone remember Woody Harrelson in Will and Grace? he is once grace's boyfriend and he is super straight in that role (well, he played a lot of manly role in general). Therefore It makes these photos even hotter to watch! hmmmm I guess Woody is the top and Owen is the bottom if they are really couples :P
It was a apologizing email. Honestly i am really surprised i would even got his email again after I've called him a jerk (dont get me wrong, i did mean it), let alone he would apologize of what he did.
anyway, this is the email
"Hey P.
i really hate you being angry at me.. i'm sorry about it - i've thought about what you said and i was wrong.. I hope you'll forgive me and we can talk soon..
W"
I didn't reply. i guess its because i am still angry with him. that few sentences are definitely not enough to make me forgive what he did. Moreover, In that email he just seemed he just dont want me to be angry with him but to acknowledge he really did somthing wrong. you know most of the people would not want to be accused to be a jerk. More importantly, that incident was just a wake up call, I should have leave him much earlier anyway. I am glad that this email is not that well written, otherwise I really dont know if i can still keep my strength to stay away from him.
its 2 a.m. in the morning right now, quite sleepy, but i know if i dont keep this blog as update as i can i might just leave it especially when it comes to bad memories. Writing them is like ripping off the wound.
okay, lets start
The whole thing started a week ago when we were chatting on skype. It was just a casual chat and we were just talking about whatever. Then he told me he went to this decent restaurant to have beer with his friend the other night and kept telling me how good it was. honestly, I didn't suspect a thing when he told me that and then i just casually asked who that was, then he just said a friend of his (i should have sensed soemthing wrong by then cuz he usually just say the name of the friend, but whatever, i still didn't suspect a thing). Then i dont know if he felt guilty or what, he told me that was a gay friend. Well, since he said that, if coz i would want to know more now, i asked him where did he meet him, then he told me he met him through a friend, then i go "oh, is that friends called 'internet'"? then he said yes. You know, i really dont know what i should said at that point, all i can think of is to be calm, I tried to think about us and i thought me and him are not boyfriends anymore so he techically could do anything he wanted, so i was trying to act fine and finish the conversation. In fact, that was a quite decently conversation beside that. However, the more i thought about that the more i felt that is wrong. especially when he went back to UK last month he promised me not to meet anyone online before i go there to visit him later this summer. I made that clear, not from Internet because last year he meet a guy from Internet and that guy turned out became his boyfriend for few months. Thats why i was being specific. However, he broke his promise. then we chatted online few days later, i asked him why would he do that? and all he said was "come on, he is just a friend". dude, it wasn't conviencing at all. meeting a friend from a dating site?? what kind of friend you want to meet? and asian? the type that you are attracted to? and why do you have to lie about how you guys meet? if meeting him is such a normal thing why didn't you tell me you have met a friend when you first met him? everything everything, W, you are so disappointing and the fact that you normalize the whole thing made me sick. the worst thing is he totally dont want to answer those questions and just made some excuse to dismiss me on msn. He told me his roommate and his roommate's boyfriend has arrived so he need to go. he did mention they would go to his room and drink in his place earlier, but come on, you dismiss me just like that?? Every time when someone call him while i am having a conversation with him on the phone or msn he would just dismiss me. it wasn't pleasant but i am fine with that since we weren't talking something really important. but now, how could you just dismiss me like that??? can you just tell your roommate to wait?? where do they live?? under your room!!!!!! fucker.
anyway, he emailed me the next day and pretend nothing happened.
i didn't answer the email
next day, he emailed again and ignore the whole incident and asked me if i could take a look of his website and give some comments to his site and he told me he would on line between 7-8 his time.
W, how could you just ignore that and when you dont want to talk to me you could just dismiss me like that. now you expect me to wait for you?? huh??
I didn't wait, i went to gym, i know he might call so i put my cell in the locker as well.
when i finsh working out i found that he did called. i didn't reply it either
the next day (yesterday), he emailed ma again asking me if i okay cuz i never reply this email and take his call. but wait, why do you suddenly care now? sometime you could just not emailing and calling me for a whole week. anyway, he called, honestly i still want to ask him why he can think what he did is okay, but my brain just went blank. I told him i was really upset and i dont understand, i need time, then i hanged up...
seriously
i dot know what i suppoes to say, suppose to do, suppose to think, sometime i even wonder if what he did is actually normal. i dont know....my hand just can't function properly....
so, S told me he had known me for a long time. He told me he had visited my friendster page(can you imagine how long ago it was? friendster?) long time ago and thought my photos is very "interesting" (really? just interesting? LOL). he even told me he had messaged me but i never reply. After he told me he had messaged me, i did vaguely remember seeing his face at my friendstar message inbox (but come on, you? reply you? if he had a better photo on friendster i might have replied him). However, to be honest, seeing him in real person does make me think he actually could be a nice boyfriend. Anyway, isn't it very creepy there is always some people to claim to know you just because they had cyber stalked you?? yes, this is not the first time "some people" told other people they know me but i have no freaking idea who they are. Anyway, we carried on talking about that after dinner when we chatting in S's house because i called him a stalker. One thing I felt quite weird about him is he is trying to be too close/friendly to me which made me wonder if he likes me. In his place, he kept showing E (T was sleeping in the couch) my photos on friendstar to explain how "interesting" i was ( i really dont know why he would do that). Then he added me on facebook and asked me to log in to add him (was it necessary???). However, i didn't add him at that time tho, not in front of other people. anyway, suddenly a shocking news (just for me) came out from E's month, which is T and S are boyfriends.
WHAT?? I COULDN'T SENSE THAT AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!! They didn't kiss, didn't have any sweet talk, didn't hold hands, didn't even sit together when we ate!!!
anyway, i felt so stupid to called S a stalker. I really didn't know what T would think. honestly i really want to keep T as my friend and i don't want to him to misunderstand me therefore I know I need to keep distance from S.
When S drove me home that night I told him I really didn't know he and T are boyfriends if E didn't mention it. Then he said he thought i knew. I told him It was not even possiable for anyone to tell they are boyfriends unless those people are being told. Then he suddenly looked quite upset and go, "Do you think we are a good match?"
WAH! (chinese shocking expression) why would you ask me that??? What can i answer you ???? Would anyone know better then yourself ???? it was such a ridiculous question to ask.
Since that was such a dangerious question to answer I didn't think about if they really match or not at all. All i can think about is a nice way to say yes (do you really think no could be an opinion? huh? seriously?) to comfort him.
Drama Drama, can you keep away from me? what i want is just friends........
Lots of things happened recently, bad things mostly. those things made me so depressed that I just couldn't do anything at all, the only thing i could do is constantly think about those bad things. All those things could make the perfect excuse for me to stop writing the blog since i am not good at writing, everything i write it takes me lots of time. However, i have decided to continue writing this blog because I know i just can't let myself drown into the lake of darkness. Moreover, i think this blog gives me a very good opportunely for me to share the things in my mind and i believe it would help for me to let go of what happened. I don't know if there is someone would constantly read this blog, if you happen to be one of them, i want to say thanks here, thank you for reading this small blog even this blog is so insignificantly existed.
Sometimes i wonder if what i write is interesting enough for people to read since this blog isn't meant to just for myself but also for the public to read as well. Therefore sometimes I think i should just skip some events which don't sound very interesting for most of the people, but, isn't it what blog there for and why it is so interesting to read? recording small, insignificant events or things that only mean something for their own but it somehow connects to the readers?
Therefore, I have decided I would just write whatever I feel like to write even it might even sounds silly to other people.
Therefore, "SUCK IT UP, GUYS!!!" hahahahhahahahahahhaha
okay, the long boring introductions is actually for the following incident......the reason i dont want to write about this is because i dont even know what i think is even true, I would be so embarrassed if its not :P. anyway, this is what happened.
Since me and T just exchanged phone number last week and we haven't been spoken to each other since then I decided I should do something to bring our friendship to the next stage. I text messaged him my msn few days ago. The same day, he called and told me he just got off from work and wanted to hang out. I told him I needed time to prepare, hence I suggested he should just come over my place and wait for me. Eventually we were just staying at my place and start drinking and chatting. Although T might not be the best mate I want to chat with but I still had a fairly pleasant time chatting. After that we decided to move our ass to go for supper. By the time we are ready to go T got a phone call from this friend asking if we want to join them for supper in up town. I agreed and we finally joined them around 7. Including me, there were only four people this time (ma, T, S and E). I've seen S and E once before in that gay event but we almost didn't chat at all since it was the first time I meet them and the crowd was quite big which makes it awkward to talk. I was hoping I could finally have some real conversation with them this time. The supper was really pleasant and I enjoy it very much. T turns out to be the normalest guy within the group, S is the uptight kind and E is the crazy dude. After the supper, on the way to take his car, he told me sometime a somwhow shocking news, he told me he had known me for a very long time. However, i have no memory meeting his guy before last week......(continue)
"It isn't kind to cultivate a friendship just so one will have an audience."
-Lawana Blackwell
"But come on, everyone does that!" Princsm screams,
Friendship
I think i am just a snob when it comes to meeting new friends. There are few things I think its quite important want to choose my friend. First, the look, oh yes, call me a s.h.a.l.l.o.w. but come on, please dont tell me you dont care how your friends look. Honestly i think it is actually really normal to do cuz people do want to project certain image to others and every move of you defines who you are includes choosing your friends, just like the reason why you chose to wear that red low-cut dress you went to a club last time. What i am saying is, I do choose my friend according their look, it doesn't just mean they have to have "good looking", but "the look" i want to hang out with. Second, maturity and mentality, I hate when people say things without really thinking about it and especially when they make pointless assumptions, it really annoys me. I like critical thinking and i like critical discussion too, for instance, if you want to talk about the movie you like, please dont just tell me "oh, its a really good movie! its very exciting/romantic/touching......", what i really want to hear is "why is it exciting/romantic/touching?" How about the acting? is the script cleverly written? what about the cinematography? is the visual good? What about the character/plot development........etc. Well, one could argue some people think social intercourse should be a relaxing thing and dont really want any "in depth discussion". Thats true too, but what i am saying is, I may not need to have "in depth discussion" every time but at least I want my friend to be able to have critical thinking and trust me, there are so many people can't even explain why they think the movie is so extraordinary. last thing, most important one, sincere and honest, i guess i dont have to explain why for this one.
I start wonder if i should change the headline of this post, cuz this post doesn't look like i am talking how i met those new Friend but about how snobbish i am. anyway, here is the story.
few days ago there was this big gay event held in the city and since the area the event took place was quite near where i live therefore i decided to go to take a look. I really didn't expect to meet anyone but eventually i met one of the guy I had met one or twice, T. T is a quite good looking guy(but he is the cutesy type, too much like a bottom, which is clearly not my type) anyway, I had ran into him few times on the street before and he was being quite nice to me. I dont know why but I was actually quite surprised that he was bein that nice to me. Cuz when a gay cute boy meet an other gay cute boy, it usually forms either love or competition, but friendship. Moreover, I am very shy and i don't speak much when I meet new people (even people i think i would like to han out with), which makes people think i am really arrogant (although sometimes its true), therefore . Anyway, I ran into him again that day and he asked me to join him to met his other friends. I almost said no because i really hate socialize with a bunch of new people but i am really desperate to have some friends, therefore I agreed to went with him. The crowd was big It feels rather awkward as I expected when we met up with his friends and I had almost zero interaction with his friends and I ended up just stuck with T all the time. For what i saw, there are only 1 or 2 people out of the crowd seem like the type i want to be friend with. Anyway, technically i didn't really met anyway new friends that day, but i really hope it would lead some real firendship later on...
I always refuse to meet or hang out with a group of gay friends. Why not? please don't tell me you don't know 9 out of 10 gay guys are nosy bitches, they gossip, a lot. I know this fact since I was grade 9 and i knew i am not going to like it therefore since then i never want to meet a group of gay friends. Each of my gay friend are quite individual which means when I hang out with my gay friends I only hang out with them once at a time and try my best to not to involve their group activities. Anyway, It helps me to prevent those gay bitches bitching about me, especially most of my friends are older then me they tend to take care of me therefore my name never really got discredited, well, not that i know. However, In the other hand, E, my best gay friend (used to be my best straight friend), didn't take my advice, when he turned gay few years ago he met a bunch of gay friends and hanged out with them all the time. Then he kept dating guys in his friend groups. Dating guys in your friend group shouldn't be a huge issue at all but breaking up with them is a serious one, especially the one who has tighter bounding with the group isn't you. It was too late for him to realized that. I don't know why E is so unfortunate every time his relationship ended the other guy would kept bitching about him to his friends (actually that is understandable, you would want "your" friend in your side right?) . Eventually after few broke ups, a huge amount of so called "friends" turned against him and call him a slut. I know E very for a long time and he is definitely not a slut (although some time he does act quite slutty). Anyway, after a long period of time being discredited, now those who kinna know about him but never meet him and talk to him in person would think he is a slut. Even my friends who have seen my photos that i took with E and didn't know we are best friends would tell me he is a slut and i should avoid him, of course i didn't tell E but It really makes the idea of meeting group gay friends sound very bad in my mind.
The days of living in this western country had been quite pleasant for me since the day i came here. I was lucky enough to meet a bunch of very good friends who have similar interest and maturity as me. I have to say that the first 2 years of college life was my favorite year in this country because i have those friends. However, since they are all older then me and graduate earlier then me they leave earlier then me as well, since my third year my friend has been leaving one by one. In my fourth year i almost has no good friends left in the city i am living in. I actually thought I would be fine because i had never thought friends would be a such important thing to me anyway. However, after one year of being no friends at all i realized how much i miss those friends i had and how much I need friends. I guess there were other factors as well, like i went through a serious family issue last summer and i were having winter depression last winter. Therefore I was desperate enough that I've decided I really should meet some new gay friends even if they are in group...
After few attempts, i did it.....well, at least it looks like it....I will have more detail tomorrow cuz it time to sleep now....
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